Loving the Unloved

Philippians 2:3-4

2010-12-28T19:31:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 28 December 2010

Today I spent some time with Azard and Neela since I had some business related interpreting to do for them. I've mentioned this before and my feelings have not since changed: I am always grateful for the opportunity to spend individual quality time with my Deaf friends as it allows me to know a Deaf person on a deeper level.

Something different happened today. As we talked, laughed, shared and exchanged information, Azard and Neela became the mirror into which I saw my life. Somehow I was forced to reevaluate my own life against theirs as the layers of their characters were peeled away. Azard's ambition, sacrifice and concern for familial affairs were brought to the forefront and I was inspired. I was inspired and again forced to reevaluate [yes myself as an individual] but also my opinion of him.

Esteem: to value something or somebody highly; to have a high regard for something or someone; regard with respect or admiration.

Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than themselves. Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others. Philippians 2:3-4

And I, looked upon Azard in a way I've never done before.. with esteem =)

*****

"I am only one, but I am one"

2010-12-12T19:41:00.000-08:00

Sunday 12 December 2010

Dear reader,

I apologise. I apologise to you for not writing sooner and more frequently, although I suspect that you may also owe me an apology for not reading lately lol. Well, there has been nothing to read so relax :)

Anyway, I feel a bit discouraged tonight and somehow it always helps when I talk to you. *Dramatic pause... sigh... Tonight I was approached by a lady who confronted me and basically voiced her concerns about what she feels is the lack of activity within Agape Deaf Centre. I will not give an account of this conversation in detail for obvious reasons but I will say that at the end of the convo I was left with feelings of failure and inadequacy.

Reader, I am not a failure nor am I inadequate to fulfill the purpose that God has called me towards. This I know. Yet I feel incompetent and ineffectual in so many ways. Is it my youth? My unsociable tendencies? My shying away from responsibilities which comes with the title of director? My inexperience? I could list a million things that hinders my effectiveness as a good leader but I could hear God nudging me and reassuring me that I'm designed for His purpose in my life and I'm not serving the Deaf by accident.

It's funny how much I've grown, been humbled and learnt from my Deaf friends. Initially I expected to be the one imparting knowledge but here I am experiencing change. "Loving the Unloved" has everything to do with me Reader.

With tears in my eyes, tonight I kick inadequacy and failure aside and look to my God who is my strength, my source and my comfort. I turn to Him and ask Him to fill me, use me and hold me. Will you agree with me tonight Reader, whoever and wherever you are? All I need is God. All I need is God. He is enough. Edward Everett Hale said it best:

"I am only one, but I am one. I can't do everything but I can do something. The something I ought to do, I can do. And by the grace of God, I will."

YOU MOVE ME

2010-10-04T19:16:00.000-07:00

Monday 4th October 2010

Dear Reader,

I haven't written in a while. Please forgive me. Maybe you haven't read in a while. I forgive you in advance. Now we're equal =)

Tonight I have a link I want you to view: http://http//www.youtube.com/watch?v=4kwj6lN6xWw

Here are the lyrics:

"You Move Me"
This is how life seems to me
Life is only therapy
Real expensive and no guarantee
So I lie here on the couch
With my heart hanging out
Frozen solid with fear
Like a rock in the ground
But you move me
You give me courage I didnt know I had
You move me
I can't go with you and stay where I am
So you move me
Here is how love was to me
I could look and not see
Going through the emotions
Not knowing what they mean
And it scared me so much
That I just wouldn't budge
I might have stayed there forever
If not for your touch
Oh but you move me
Out of myself and into the fire
You move me
I'm burning with love and hope and desire
How you move me
You go whistling in the dark
Making light of it
Making light of it
And I follow with my heart
Laughing all the way
Oh 'cause you move me
You get me dancing and you make me sing
You move me
Now I'm taking delight in every little thing
How you move me
You move me
You move me
You move me

Thank you Lord for placing Deaf friends in my life.

I AM MOVED.

Angels

2010-05-14T21:00:00.000-07:00

Saturday 15th May 2010

Psalm 91:11 "For He will order his angels to protect you wherever you go."

On the morning of Mother's Day, Shevon, his wife Pauline and son Mark as well as Colin and his wife Krystal were involved in a vehicular accident as they were on their way to church. In that trauma section of the San Fernando General Hospital, I saw tears of gratitude in Pauline and Krystal's eyes and a meditative, pensive, grateful expression on Shevon's face. Shevon was driving when the incident occured. He said he saw angels.. he saw angels protecting them as the car collided with another, spun and flipped over. My pores raised. My eyes were moisted. I praised God.

"He will give his angels charge over thee..."

I know that God had protected his children that day. His children, who were also 'angels' in my life. I tried my best to be of service, to offer prayer, comfort, do some interpreting but when I looked over it was Omar who was the greater servant. He had arrived at the incident upon contact and was interpreting for police officers and nurses and doctors and wheeling over hospital beds here and there. I wonder if Shevon and Pauline and Krystal and Colin realised that God had sent another 'angel' to help them?

This week I paused and I recalled the 'angels' God had sent in my life: Mama (she would be the 'queen-angel' if such a being exists lol), Joey Howell and Brooke Nicholson. Then of course there are people whose spirit are just kindred to yours: Mama again (she's queen..remember? lol) and Allison St Brice. Also, those friends who will always be friends even when there's a gap in communication like Michael Thomas. I thought about Papa and his fatherly love in Suriname, I thought about Siquina and Obie and how natural it felt to be with them in New Jersey. Then I thought about Omar who God had sent during this season in my life.. another 'angel'.

Omar receptionist, Cubbie Bear, Mr bmobile, Big Head, Bachack (cant spell dat), Black ant, Whitey, Mr "uncrampable style" has been a brother and a friend to me. I smile when I think about how I often wondered what having a brother meant then God drops another 'angel' into the equation. I feel blessed to have him with me for this period. I not only have a worthy Mastermind opponent but a valuable ADC family member who makes decision making seem so easy and the leadership responsibilities appear less overwhelming. I value our friendship and I thank God for placing him in my life!

Reader, I'm beginning to think that Agape Deaf Centre is breeding 'angels' in my life lol. ADC should really be Angel Discovery Centre.

To Krystal and Pauline

2010-05-08T19:56:00.000-07:00

Saturday 8th May 2010

Well Reader, let's talk about my beautiful sisters Pauline and Krystal smile. I really dont know where to start when it comes to these two young women. They are my friends, my teachers, my students. I am always learning from them and sharing with them and they are very dear to my heart_ smile again.

Lord, thank you. My heart is swollen with gratitude.

I think it is always good to pause and consider. I pause now. I consider Krystal - carefree, jovial, real. It is so refreshing to be in her company and I am ALWAYS 'me' - the real me - in her company. As I write, my eyes are moist and my heart is smiling...I realise how much she has helped me to become a better me. Wow...who would I have been if God in His wisdom had not given me Precious Deaf friends? Krystal has shown me how to 'free-up' myself and be free to be who I am regardless of what others may think or say.

Her appetite for the Word and her childlike amazement as she discovers the promises of God strikes me. I have become too accustomed to God's Word that I have forgotten the joy of having God as my first love. Krystal reminds me. SMILE. Why is God so merciful to me? Look at how He loves me and speaks to me through others... thank you Father.

I consider Pauline - youthful, never complaining, full of the Word, a kingdom woman! I remember the first day she came to devotions and I was so impressed by her knowledge of the Word. What a woman! We share a common love for plants and shopping and other girly things...we even share the same age lol. I look at Pauline and I see a beautiful, responsible, mature woman - the woman I have not yet become but aspire to be. I admire her. I value her friendship and I embrace her wisdom, which I know comes from her knowledge of the Word. I feel as if God is using her to minister to me and mentor me.

Krystal and Pauline.

Well, I cannot say that I have any close female Christian friends outside my Deaf circle of friends. Some my argue about they dept of a Deaf person's understanding of the Word but I know that the relationship I have with my Deaf sisters is nothing like what I've shared with others. The sharing of His Word is real and dynamic and they are a wonderful blessing in my life.

Father, you know my needs and you know them better than I do. Look how you have supplied them! I answered the call and you have given me gifts that I dont deserve and I am so grateful.

I am proud to say that I have Deaf friends. They are gifts that God has given to me and though some may not understand the special relationship we share, I know that my heart is at home and that God is revealing himself to me through them.

Mr George Daniel

2010-05-08T19:19:00.000-07:00

Saturday 8th May 2010

Wow lol, I havent written since February and now I'm trying to task my brains to remember all the things that would have impacted me from Feb-April 2010.

The first thing that comes to mind is Mr George Daniel's death in April. I was shaken... First impressions are lasting, they say and I think the memory of my first meeting with him will last a lifetime. I must have spoken about that day in a previous post... but I remember feeling extremely encouraged. Yes, I remember him referring to the disabled community as "my people" and I left feeling as if I were a part of something great. It was one of those moments that you know has changed your life but you're not sure how... Even now, I'm writing and smiling and thinking that I'm not expressing myself adequately...You see, something great happened that day. Here I am - young, passionate, inexperienced and there he was, looking at me and through his eyes and words, his strength was revealed. I was in the presence of greatness and he spoke to me not as a young girl who is new and green but as a person_a person with a contribution to make a change. That was the day a pillar was rooted in my life. Something happened and it was great. Mr George Daniel impacted my life Reader...in a way that's hard to explain. I cant forget him.

To Shevon and Omar

2010-02-04T12:43:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 3rd February 2010

As I write this I remember Moses and the two people who stood at his side and held his hands up as the Israelites were at war. The scripture says in Exodus 17:11 As long as Moses held up his hands, the Israelites were winning, but whenever he lowered his hands, the Amalekites were winning.

That being said, recently I felt like I was fighting against the Amalekites and my hands were getting weary like Moses. Then, just as Moses had Aaron and Hur to help him, I had Shevon and Omar.

Exodus 17:12
When Moses' hands grew tired, they took a stone and put it under him and he sat on it. Aaron and Hur held his hands up -- one on one side, one on the other -- so that his hands remainded steady till sunset.

Thank you Lord for placing me in a Spiritual family and sending people in my life to encourage me...thank Lord!

Deaf Spelling Bee Competition 2010

2010-02-04T12:33:00.000-08:00

Saturday 30th January 2010

Well, believe it or not, I served as a judge for the Deaf Spelling Bee on Saturday. Wow! Just about a year or so ago I'm not sure if I would have been able to serve in this capacity but here I was interacting and joking and laughing with the other Deaf judges there.

Of course I had a grand time!! I'm just amazed at how fast God works. It seemed like it was just a few months ago that I volunteered to assist and I never considered that I would have all these exciting and learning experiences. I never considered all these blessings and favour will come my way....but it did and I am so grateful!

Thank you Lord

To Ian - a light in the darkness

2010-02-04T12:21:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 27th January 2010

Ian, Cubbie, Shevon, Krystal and I meet to have a devotional session. Each person was able to share about anything that was on their mind and hearts like a testimony or a prayer request. Everyone seemed to have a longing to get closer to God and a greater commitment to reading His Word, praying and being a good witness.

Somehow Ian just stood out to me on this day. His light was just shining in the darkness. He testified about the favour God has been pouring into his life and I could tell that God's face was shining upon him. Unlike the rest of us, he stated that he read his Bible and prayed regularly.

I felt as if Ian was a torch shining in my dark world. I remembered the intimacy I onced shared with God and I began to thirst for it once more. I began to miss the daily favours of the Lord and the relationship we shared. Ian reminded me of God's faithfulness and I needed to be reminded.

Thank you Lord for Ian

May you bless him and prosper him

Whatever he puts his hands to do is successful

He is above only and never below

Favour is chasing him down wherever he goes

Ian is blessed in his going and coming

In Jesus' name I pray

Amen!

One beat

2010-02-04T11:39:00.000-08:00

Saturday 23rd January 2010

Today I interpreted for a drumming class in Siparia. It was pretty interesting to see how excited the Deaf were about drumming and even more amazing to witness was how they drummed together in one beat, one sound, one rhythm in harmony!!

I cant help but think about our lives as Christians. We are different but yet belong to one body. A body that breathes and lives in harmony. That oneness reminds me of the oneness in heart, mind and spirit that the Holy Spirit brings to people of different races, nationalities, cultures etc.

Praise the Lord!

Micah 6:6-8

2010-01-20T16:17:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 20th January 2010

Today Shevon and I meet to spend some time developing intimacy with God. It was great.

We prayed, shared some testimonies, talked about the importance of prioritising where God is concerned then discussed today's reading from a Deaf devotional we recently got.

Before I share about the reading, I must share Shevon's testimony. He told me that sometime ago, he used to give a homeless man (vagrant) food and tell him about living a better life by praying and stop his smoking habit. Actually, he would purposely bring food for him and talk to him on a regular basis. Anyway, at some point he noticed that the man was no longer there and he began to wonder if he had died amongst other things. Then one day he saw the man, well dressed and looking decent and they began to talk. The man had gotten a job and even more, he went in his pocket and gave Shevon $200!! Imagine that!!

Well my pores raised and I just praised God over and over again!! Wow!! What a mighty God we serve!!

Right, so today's reading focused on "What God wants" and the memory verse was Micah 6:6-8, which reads:

With what shall I come before the LORD

and bow done before the exalted God?

Shall I come before him with burnt offerings,

with calves a year old?

Will the LORD be pleased with thousands of rams,

with ten thousand rivers of oil?

Shall I offer my firstborn for my transgression,

the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul?

He has showed you, O man, what is good.

And what does the LORD require of you?

To act justly and to love mercy

and to walk humbly with your God.

All in all, the lesson learnt was that often times we are too busy and preoccupied with trivial matters that we forget to consult God and find out what God wants. Shevon and I both admitted that we have been guilty of doing this and made a commitment to seek God first in the week ahead of us and in Deaf Church and ADC decisions.

Added to all of this, we knew that God had a purpose in our meeting today because the reading was in sync with what we were discussing prior to today's reading. The New Testament verse that stood out to me was Matthew 6:33 which reads:

But seek first his kingdom and righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well

Thank you Lord for a good day.

Pause...smile...smile again =)

2010-01-20T16:09:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 19th January 2010

Today I helped Ian and Lisa with their contract of employment. *Pause and smile...smile again. I had another commitment at 6pm and I promised to meet them at 4pm and I really did not realise that it was an entire four-page legal document that they wanted me to explain lol.

God is good because it was done. I was able to explain and still keep my appointment! I smile because it is just amazing how peaceful I felt and I never had the urge to complain. I just enjoyed interpreting and it felt so natural as if it was something I was created to do.

Oh how wonderful it is to help those you love!

I feel good

2010-01-18T18:25:00.000-08:00

Monday 18th January 2010

I began 2010 feeling spiritually lethargic and I was not happy about it...

Today I feel so good (good good. I feel good, wonderful good) and I really really do!! Praise God!! Well, Azard and Neela came to my home for some help with a handout on communication particularly in preparation for marriage.

I TOTALLY enjoyed spending time with them. It was so fulfilling and satisfying especially when I could tell that they left edified. What a blessing it is to be a blessing!!

Added to all of this, I must say that I am now convinced that the more I deposit into the lives of the Deaf, the more God deposits into my life. I think that it's amazing that while I'm teaching and explaining about communication in marriages based on the information they have been given, I am also learning in the process... it's like a big bonus for doing something you love!! haha

I feel good
I feel love
I feel faith hold
I feel strong
Wonderful
Chatting with Jesus

THANK YOU LORD!!!!!!!!!!

2009 in Review

2010-01-18T18:21:00.000-08:00

January to December 2009

THANK YOU LORD for the multitude of blessings in 2009.

I have dreams and when I see God fulfilling those dreams before my eyes, all I could do is just stand in awe of him. I have dreams that I never thought I will even begin to fulfill - seemingly trivial dreams and BIG dreams. The year 2009 was amazing and I feel that when I said "Yes" to God and volunteered at ADC, I also said yes to a whirlwind (I was about to say whirlpool hehe) of blessings... Of these blessings, the following two are at my front burners:

1. Travelled multiple times in a single year: Suriname, Amsterdam, Tobago, Barbados, Costa Rica, Panama, New York, New Jersey
2. Got a motorcycle ride!! whooo hoo!!

Oh yes, and I also

started driving after 4 or 5 years with my license!
got another more convenient job!
had my first pinata and best birthday ever!
had the best Christmas ever!
greeted the new year in a foreign country!

I STAND IN AWE OF YOU

NJ with Siquina and Obie

2010-01-18T18:17:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 29th - Wednesday 30th December 2009

To Siquina and Obie, a BIG THANK YOU, for your hospitality, the adventure, the laughter and the love!!! I feel so blessed to know you both!

Bess Christmas

2010-01-18T17:58:00.000-08:00

Friday 25th December 2009

Thank you to the following persons for giving me a Christmas to remember :D

Papa Bear
Mama Bear
Mommy Bear
Cubbie Bear
Granny Bear

A big 'small lime' at the mall

2009-12-20T16:10:00.000-08:00

Saturday 19th December 2009

On this day I met Lisa's lovely mom. I was so happy to meet her and share the experience I had with Lisa during her job interview. I always like to meet parents, family members or guardians of deaf persons because it helps me to gain a greater understanding of that person's domestic life which ultimately leads to a deeper knowledge of that person as an individual.

I was really grateful to share this seemingly common activity of browsing through the mall with Kamal, Lisa and her mom. I am especially happy for these opportunities to have special time with deaf individuals. I want them to know that while they are loved as a group, they are also loved as individuals and spending time with them apart from church and interpreting activities really matters.

I am always mindful of this and so whenever these sometimes brief but always meaningful moments have ended, I leave feeling a sense of joy and contentment, even peace, just knowing that I have just invested in a building relationship. This is how I felt at the end of this short 'lime' with Kamal, Lisa and her mom. I could tell that Lisa's mom was grateful that I was there and that I was willing to help Lisa and Kamal in whatever way I could....how encouraging :) Reader, it was a good day :)

Mayaro

2009-12-18T14:00:00.001-08:00

Friday 18th December 2009

Ian and Lisa's job application

2009-12-18T13:59:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 15th December 2009

God is good all the time and all the time God is good.

This is a testimony of God's goodness towards Ian and Lisa :D

Day one (1)
After Deaf Church on Sunday last, Ian presented me with a newspaper ad which stated the following:

MOVIETOWNE IS COMING SOON TO CHAGUANAS!

HIRING NOW! Call: 627-2002/4788

Email: jobs@movietowne.com

PRICE PLAZA - CHAGUANAS

He then asked me to respond to the ad via telephone and ask whether or not they would be willing to hire Deaf persons. I agreed to do it.

Day two (2)

The following day, which will be Monday 14th December, Ian texted me and reminded me to contact Movietowne (of course forgetful Jones...or forget Joan that I am...I need these constant texts as reminders lol) Anyway, back to the tory... I called and the woman advised me to visit their Port of Spain branch to fill out an application then the application may be considered. She said that they have never hired Deaf persons before but they were willing to take up the challenge.

So I texted Ian and informed him of what is required and I suggested that we invite Lisa who was searching for a job since August. He agreed and throughout the day, arrangements were made to go to Movietowne, Port of Spain the following day.

Day three (3)

So this is day three. My expectation of this day was that we go, fill out the application form, attach their resumes and photos, leave the application and wait for a response. That was my expectation...but God had a plan lol

First of all, I printed Ian and Lisa's resume with a cover letter addressed to Movietowne, but I forgot it home. I was prepared to return home for them but Omar, our designated driver, suggested that we print it from my flash drive. Later I discovered that I also left that at home but praise God, both Ian and Lisa had their updated resumes and cover letters with a space to insert the employer's name and address.

So God's plan was that we go there, fill out the application forms then have an interview one time!! lol Of course I had no expectations of an interview lol... Anyway, I interpreted for Lisa and Omar agreed to interpret for Ian. We prayed then interviews were in session.

The first thing the interviewer told Lisa was a compliment. Thank you Lord! She admired Lisa's neatness and constantly praised her beauty! Thank you Lord! She was also very concerned about people taking advantage of Lisa and other members of the differently abled community. To be honest, this did not feel like an interview at all lol. I felt as if Lisa and by extension, Ian already had the job and this was just a conversation to ensure that the logistics of the job were understood and any questions or concerns could be addressed lol. Apparently Omar and Ian had the same experience. Well, the interviewer said she will call me and let me know their decision. I guess this was formality because both Omar and I were convinced that they got the job.

Day four (4)
As you know Reader, I have expectations and God's plan always prevails. I expected to be contacted probably later in the week or the following week but God's plan was different. The following two days Thursday 17th December, I received a call from the HR department at Movietowne. Lisa and Ian got the job!! God is so good!

So four (4) days - Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and Thursday - if you want to count Wednesday and say five (5) days... it really doesnt matter! What matters is that God is faithful and next year two Deaf persons will have a job. Ian and Lisa have been working tirelessly making jewellry to sell during this Christmas season and I am so happy for them both :)

Thank you Lord for your favour!!

President's Reception

2009-12-16T08:52:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 9th December 2009

What a night! When I think about this night I think about mom mentioning - "When you're with them you just feel a special joy eh". Smile...I will be a liar if I say I don't agree.

I enjoyed this night. I was happy also that my mom was there and she too could experience this joy. Thank you Lord. I was able to dance with a Deaf man that I dont usually see very often and I was glad that I was able to. I always like to do little things to help each person remember that they are special to me.

In a nutshell, we ate, we drank, we ate again, we laughed and everyone bombarded the poor president lololol. I was happy to see them happy and I was ESPECIALLY happy to see Bobby from Mayaro approach the President confidently and shake his hand assertively as he greeted him. I am so happy that he and his wife Mala were able to meet the President. It warmed my heart!!

This was my first night at the President's house and it's because of my Precious-es that I was able to do so!! Thank you Lord!

Costa Rica - La Pura Vida

2009-12-16T07:28:00.000-08:00

November 2009

Well mi amiga y yo went to Costa Rica in November for some further linguistic studies. Of the few stories there are to share, one particular testimony stands out. We went there hoping to connect with the local deaf and also attend Deaf Church during the two Sundays that we were there.

Fortunately mi amiga randomly met a few deaf persons on a small trip to the city and discovered their usual Friday 'liming' spot. So Friday evening there was only one place we could be. I had decided before that I would only observe and allow my amiga who is more outgoing, to lead in all conversations.

Well, lol all this changed when we arrived. I was just so completely excited and my heart was bubbling with such joy that it was hard to just stand aside and observe lol. We talked and we laughed and we enjoyed ourselves. However, we had not yet met anyone who was attached to a Deaf Church.

God is so good! It was getting a bit late and my blood sugar levels were beginning to drop because I hadn't eaten. So I was trying to explain that I needed to eat to some deaf persons but they did not understand the TTSL sign for diabetic!! lol I tried explaining what it meant but they looked more and more confused lol. I was feeling really unwell yet they insisted that they must understand what I was saying. So they emphatically lead me to their friend Carlos. They said Carlos was smart and that he will understand and he did. So said so done.

AMAZINGLY, my blood sugar level normalised instantaneously after meeting Carlos. I did not realise this until later that night but God had a plan. Carlos and I began talking and when I told him I was from Trinidad, he told me that he knew some Trinidadian Deaf. Then he began listing all the Trinidadian Deaf that he met some years ago ".....Shevon, Ian, Salina, Roger...." LOL I began to jump!! I was sooooo excited!! I called mi amiga! This was the guy we were looking for. This is the person who would know about the Deaf Church and this the person who our Deaf had already connected with on their previous trip to Costa Rica.

Anyway, my heart was just dancing and I felt as if I could not contain the joy I felt just overflowing within me. Carlos (2nd person from left in pic above) seemed very happy as well. He shared about the local Deaf Church and the issues that they had and the literacy hurdles that they had to overcome. He seemed very educated, he was really friendly and I feel in love with his spirit. He reminded me of Ian and I felt like a bit of home was with me in San Jose that night.

I remembered that I had only spoken to Shevon online the day before and he asked me if I had met anyone that they met when they were here. I was amazed at how God operates and how He connects people globally and what tools He uses to bring people together.

It was a great night and my happiest and most fulfilling moment at Costa Rica.

"My hands are small, I know.."

2009-10-09T22:14:00.000-07:00

Saturday 10th October 2009

I'm learning Reader, I'm learning...

I am learning what is truly important. It is love. It is relationships. It is kindness. It is laughter. Is this the secret of the rose bud....?

I feel so renewed...sigh. I have been listening to Jhewel's "Hands" for the pass half hour or so and the words are so powerful. Here's a link to it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2n-6uyMV9-0 Here are some words that really stood out to me:

"I wont be made useless"
"I am never broken"
"Poverty stole your golden shoes, it didn't steal your laughter"
"In the end, only kindness matters"
"We are never broken"

I just keep thinking about how nothing could break the human spirit... I think about the Deaf women and wives and the power they have within them; that strength that causes them to continue despite because they wont be made useless and they are NEVER broken.

Another thing is that I managed to randomly read one of the comments posted after this youtube video and mention was made of Rachel's Challenge. I challenge YOU to research it at this link http://www.rachelschallenge.org/ You have no excuse now because I provided the link!! I am touched by Rachel Scott's story. THANK YOU LORD FOR MY HANDS.

With these small hands, I will love, I will sign, I will write, I will teach, I will touch lives and_I WILL.

This afternoon some of the Deaf and I went to Logos Hope for a special dinner, tour then persual of the book store. It was an overall success! Yayyyyy!!! Hats off especially to crew members Liz and Jessica for their patience and time and love! *raise hats, smile, nod and replace hats :D Hats off to the wonderful drivers Roger, Kamal and Amena! Hats off to the PRO - Amena who followed through on all calls and ensured that everything was organised well! Hats off to all the lovely ladies who were dressed to impress!! Ok I think we should start clapping cuz ppl hands may be gettin tired from all the "raising of hats.... So finally let's have a healthy, hearty round of applause for all the deaf and hearing people who showed up tonight, ate well, paid attention to the tour guide, asked questions, bought books and left happy like pappy!!! *round of applause :D

Logos Hope brings help, knowledge and hope to people around the world. It's such a simple yet substantial and sustainable vision......errrrrrr which reminds me.... we gotta start working on the ADC vision asap...lol ..not funny :S

Change

2009-10-03T20:54:00.000-07:00

Saturday 3rd October 2009

I know it's been a while since I wrote and this could mean two things, namely

I am too busy with my Precious-es that I have no time to write; or
I am too free doing nothing, that there isn't anything to write about lol

Well, in this instance, the court rules in favour of the former. GOD IS AWESOME. GOD IS AMAZING. I just signed in on my blog moments ago, and I looked at the last post I published and laughed gratefully! Oh how God have been working and initiating change since that day in August!!

I must begin with the first change and blessing since that Monday in August when I wholeheartedly helped Kamal and Lisa and was ever so willing to show them love through this support. Would you believe that during this same week I received a phone call from a woman representing the Ministry of Education, offering me a job as a teacher at Vessigny Secondary School (VSS)!! To make a long story quite short, VSS is much much much closer to where I live than Port of Spain (where I worked before), so since I started teaching in September, I have been more relaxed, more rested, and the best thing of all things is that I GET TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH THE ADC FAMILY!!! WHOO HOOOO!!!

If this were a blog on my experiences as a teacher, I would say that the students could be challenging at times and from day to day I'm presented with endless opportunities to love the unloved to say the very least. However, this blog is not about my teaching experiences lol. What I would say is that I've taught a few classes sign language, specifically the alphabet :D What I would also say is that in my efforts to teach sign language and a little bit of Deaf culture to my students (in other words, as I deviate from the stipulated curriculum hehe), I meet a young student who has Deaf parents!! I am really excited about that and somehow I am ever so keen to ensure that he is well taken cared of.

As I write this, I am realising how much my 'personal' life and my ADC life are intimately intermingled. To me, there is a seamless interaction between the two and I find it hard to separate them. THIS IS MY FAMILY. THIS IS MY HOME. This is where I feel most comfortable and happiest! LOL I am reminded of an experience that I had two (2) Fridays ago at the hearing church. I think that I am so engrossed in the Deaf world that it just becomes a bit discomforting when I am confronted by so many hearing individuals. It's a strange reality. Unlike school and my average expected daily interactions with hearing persons, this Friday, I think that I was not subconsciously prepared to see so many hearing young people gathered together. I felt so misplaced and very uncomfortable. I was literally longing to return to a quiet and less socially charged atmosphere. WOW! I was shocked at my own reaction...

Anyway, where have we been? What have we been up to? I'm glad you asked Reader! We've been to the Logos Hope, we've been to the children's home in Gasparillo, we've been learning how to care for the brushcutters, we've been cleaning and putting things away not only physically but also structurally in terms of our Board of Directors (I'll say more about this shortly). We're been reaping produce and selling them, we've been working on our accounts and inventory as well as clarifying our partnership with SIL and SFOB. People have also been approaching us with a desire to support the Deaf and of course, we've been having fun!

In a nutshell, CHANGE IS HERE. Mama has been with us for a few weeks and as always it was absolutely wonderful having her here. She is not only the founder of ADC but a true Mama to the Deaf and to myself. This last few weeks spent with her revealed so much about her character. I must say "Thank you Lord for the gift of Mama (or Mama Bear as I fondly call her)". I see maturity, wisdom, humility, leadership qualities, inner strength, faith and confidence in an Almighty God in Mama. I can't say enough how much I love, honour, cherish, respect and appreciate her.

Well, as I wrap up this publication, I must mention as promised, that ADC has a new Board of Directors. Mama has passed on her service as Director to me and she is now our dear Trustee. I have no idea what challenges await me, but I am confident that God will see me through. TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

PS August 25th, 2009 marked one year since I volunteered to work with ADC. The blessings that I am able to count are numerous but I know that both countable and uncountable blessings are endless. I have been blessed with jobs, opportunities for travel and unexpected favour! What's more is that I fulfilled a mere dream I had of getting a ride on a motorcycle...it sounds trivial but it was amazing!! I am also driving now after about four (4) years of not using my license and even renewing it! Yet most importantly, I have gained a family :D * BIG SMILE!!

Showing Love

2009-08-17T19:35:00.000-07:00

Monday 17th August 2009

Tonight Lisa and Kamal came to my home. Mom and I helped them prepare their Resumes and their letters for job applications.

Helping them required no effort. It was an absolute joy to help. The time passed and I did not even realise that it did. It is so easy to love them. I actually look forward for opportunities to show them love and to bless them. I am beginning to see that the easiest and most fulfilling thing for me to do is to demonstrate love to such precious people.

All other administrative things are important but, to me, showing love and taking time to love each individual and do special things to make each person feel appreciated is priceless. I think that one of the most important things for me is ensuring that everyone knows that they are loved and valueable.

The highlight of any day will always be that look in their faces, that spark in their eyes, their smile, their laughter... the little things that makes me know that they feel safe and loved and appreciated and precious!!

John 13:34-5
"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. 35By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

Pastor Colin

2009-08-16T16:36:00.000-07:00

Sunday 16th August 2009

My Precious of the day is *drum roll...... COLIN WOOD

I was soo impressed by Colin today. I saw a change, a willingness to learn and a sense of initiative and growing spiritual maturity that I had never seen in him before. During Deaf Church today, Ian asked him to explain last week's teaching. He wrote Hebrews 10:24 and went on to explain it thoroughly. He said the scripture, he explained what it meant and he gave such relevant examples without anyone prompting. I looked on and it was hard to ignore how good he was! Everyone applauded him energetically.

I was a bit amazed and very proud of the change I had witnessed. When church was over, he said the closing prayer and yet again he grabbed my attention. His prayer was so detailed and genuine. He remembered to pray for the special needs identified in the service and there was a clear sense of maturity in his requests. His prayer revealed that he had paid attention during the teaching. Again, everyone seemed to experience the same joy I felt by the obvious difference in attitude.

I told both Colin and his wife Krystal how impressed I was that he remembered the teachings!! I was so moved by this unexpected change and I was so grateful to God and all His hidden treasures in secret places!

Well, after church, we went to visit a good friend of ours who was at the hospital. Everyone got an opportunity to express a greeting to our friend and yet again Colin stood out!! He volunteerily went to our sick friend and began to give strong words of encouragement and wisdom. I stood and looked on with gladness and awe at God's work in Colin's life. He spoke with such authority and his words were so powerful and uplifting. I believed it but I still couldnt believe that this was the same Colin I knew.

I told him that he was a great teacher, a good intercessor and now a counsellor!! So I started to call him Pastor Colin! When I went to tell his wife, she was happy and she told me that he had already told her about his new name lol.

It was the most encouraging thing to see Colin maturing in the Lord. Today I got a sneak peak of the potential that God has placed within him and I was reminded that I may sometimes overlook the potential in others but God NEVER does. Everyone has spiritual giftings and a purpose to fulfill in life and God in His wisdom and His timing has equipped us with the tools to do what He has called us to do!

prIde

2009-08-02T15:33:00.000-07:00

Sunday 2nd August 2009

Today we had fast and prayer at ADC.

Mama humbly spoke about prIde. After a few scripture verses about pride and the Deaf recapping Hebrews 10:24 and 2 Samuel 6 about showing love and Mical's prIde, Mama lead by example and openingly began to confess about her own prIde and how God had to deal with her.

It was a transparent and tearful session but it occurred in an environment of love and trust. One by one, people began to move forward and forgive others and push prIde aside. Wives were moved by Mama's testimony and confession. I also tearfully asked Mama to forgive me for the resentment I held deep inside for her abandoning me in my initial days with the Deaf. I had not realised that I kept that inside even though I acknowledged that God had intented for it to be that way in order for me to depend wholeheartedly on Him!! There was an obvious healing and cleansing taking place among us.

After these public confessions, Mama lead me directly to Man Di and I was able to also ask for her forgiveness and restore our relationship. I really look forward to a long standing friendship with her and I know that God has a wonderful plan and good things ahead for us!

Today we exposed the enemy! I did not realise how much prIde I had. I guess prIde would not allow me to see my own prIde. I was too proud to confess my sins and to ask for forgiveness. I really felt like a burden that I did not even know was there, was lifted!! At the beginning of the session Mama spoke about Matthew 7:3 "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? I was quick to criticize and complain without looking within myself and acknowledge my own sin and repent.

As of today, my admiration of Mama has grown tremendously. I respect her even more for her honesty, for her obedience to God and for her humility. What a woman! I have learnt so much from her today. I have learnt what it means to be human. Our humanity is not so much defined as our imperfections, but more so our ability to admit those imperfections and to correct them; to seek forgiveness and to forgive.

Something truly amazing happened today.

It's ma birthday!!

2009-08-02T14:41:00.000-07:00

Tuesday 28th July 2009

This was the best birthday I ever had.

My co-workers, my friends and my family made me feel special. Yet what made the biggest difference this year is my Precious, Deaf friends....*smile :)

I invited everyone to come to my home to celebrate my birthday with me. I was touched to see how Shevon and Roger began to plan the 'event' without me prompting them. Over the years, I have planning several birthdays for friends and organised surprised birthday parties and threw a baby shower and other house warming events but I had never really had someone or a group of people volunteerily plan something for me with such thought.

When Shevon asked people to say a story about me, I found that to be so thoughtful. I was so touched by the things they said. I caught myself smiling throughout!! I was just completely happy. (See link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_QPM_251TSA ) Roger shared the story of the 10 Lepers that Jesus healed and the one who returned to give thanks in Luke 17:11-17.

There was a balloon bursting competition (male and female category) and surprising I found the greatest joy in the popping of the balloons!! lol. See link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r2zdTjQC-gI I felt so honoured to be in the company of such wonderful people. Yes I was looking forward to my birthday and all the things that would have been in store but nothing really mattered other than my get together with my Precious-es.

It was also pretty amazing to see the response of everyone after I requested a plant as a gift. I received sixteen (16) plants in total!! Lisa and Kamal gave me five (5) plants!! lol Michelle sent a plant even though she could not be there. I felt so loved, so special ...I was at home with my family...

Well the highlight of my evening was not my cake with the two (2) one (1) candles (although I'm really 23), it was my custom-made pinata!!!!! Roger and Shevon made a pinata for me with the help of some others!! It was my first pinata and I felt sooooo special. Well, the funniest thing is that I couldn't even dent it when it was time to hit it lol. Check this out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GIkUM5ddIi4

Roger prayed for my mom and I and all the other people with birthdays in July.

At the end of the day my happiness was complete and it was just much much much more than I imagined or could have imagined. I have so much to be thankful for. I really feel tremendously blessed to have meet Mama and all my Precious friends. Imagine a lonely little girl like me, with all these friends and blessed with so much love!!!

I am eternally grateful...

Sharing God's Word

2009-08-02T14:03:00.000-07:00

Sunday 26th July 2009

Today Mama taught during Deaf Church.

I was able to help her by reading the scripture verses while she dramatised. I also wrote the verses on the board and drew some of her drawings on the board as a visual aid. I am ALWAYS happy and willing to help her. She is my mentor, my friend, my mother :D It is a definite pleasure to serve her and so it is effortless and easy to do it with a willing and kind heart.

I thought that the message was very effective. The Deaf understood the lesson and I too learnt. It was a three (3) part teaching. The first teaching was based on Hebrews 10:24 And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds which being interpreted in the Deaf Bible translates to think about how you may help other people, show love and do good things. Mama emphasized how it is important no to complain and critisize and how listening to someone gossip about another contributes to the sin. We were enlightened. Even though it may seem as a simple message, it is these simple things that we overlook from day to day and need to be reminded of them from time to time.

The second lesson was the story of Moses when God instructed him to keep his hand lifted with the rod in order for the Isralites to win the battle against the Amalekites (Exodus 17:8-13). Mama showed how Aaron and Hur helped Moses by bringing a stone for him to sit on and holding his hands when they were tired. In this way, they showed love and did a good thing. Furthermore, she added the story of Miriam complaining against Moses found in Numbers 12:1-15. She stressed the importance of not complaining especially against those God has placed as leaders.

Thirdly, we learnt about the pride of Mical daughter of Saul in 2 Samuel 6:14-23 who despised David worshiping, leaping and dancing before the Lord.

It was a good session all in all. I learnt some lessons that I overlooked before and I know that the Deaf were enlightened.

Psalm 119:105 Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.

Mama is here!!!!! Come leh we go Arima

2009-08-02T13:42:00.000-07:00

Sunday 19th July 2009

This day was such a testimony.

The night before this day, Shevon, Roger and I were trying to decide what arrangements could be made to take 25 Deaf persons to D'Abadie at Divine Encounter Fellowship. A Deaf missionary was carded to speak.

We were unable to secure the church van and so we were trying to tally all the vehicles we had among ourselves to accomodate everyone. Of course, we fell short lol. We laughed at ourselves. First of all, the battery in Mama's car was dead!! Roger and Shevon came up with a mastermind plan to exchange batteries from Mama's car to Roger's car. In this way, Shevon was able to drive to the airport with Mama's car and collect her without worrying about shutting down! LOL Roger was now going to use his car with the dead battery by faith!

They then suggested that I called Mr Cleavon to find out if his van was available for us. I knew that his seven (7) seater vehicle had some problems but I still called. He too decided to go by faith even though the van was not in the best condition.

So off we went Sunday morning. Roger's car, Azard's car and Mr Cleavon's van. Some people came separately with Kamal's brother. Well, there were no shut downs!!!! Praise the Lord!!!!!!

We reached D'abadie safely and meet Mama! YAY!!!! I'm always so happy to see her! God knows how much she blesses me :D. The message was a blessing. It was wonderful to see a Deaf person so knowledgable about the Bible and so passionate about God and empowering the Deaf.

Mr Cleavon as usual was another blessing. As usual, he was patient. As usual, he did not complain. As usual, he stretched himself to accomodate the Deaf. Oh! What a blessing he is! Mama, Mr Cleavon and I got an opportunity to sit and talk about the goodness of God and His works. Without a doubt God brought us together for such a time as this!

I just want to know...steups

2009-06-16T18:46:00.000-07:00

Tuesday 16th June 2009

I meant to write about some young Deaf persons that I continue to see at the PTSC bus terminus as I wait for my bus to go home after work. I meant to write about how I often long to talk to them but I'm praying for the right opportunity to. I meant to write about how good it is to share the gospel with the Deaf leaders and how encouraged I feel when I encourage them. I meant to write about that.

Tonight I intend to write about something that has troubled my heart enough for me to just write about it, question it, publish it... Where to begin? Sigh...I guess the question weighing on my mind and more my heart is really What makes a Hearing person better than a Deaf person? Their ability to hear?? Sometimes I wonder if that is even an ability...steups. There is so much more to life than prestige and wealth. Human relationships is the most valuable investment....Humility is key.

The most disheartening, discouraging, disappointing thing is when you expect a certain group of people to know better and to act differently from other people groups then you are slapped...yes slapped with the rude reality that it simply is not so. Maybe I am biased...maybe...but how does being biased towards the Deaf justify the prejudice, disrespect, negligance and indifference shown to the Deaf?? HOW?? steups again

So my question remains...how does a Hearing person automatically gain rank over a Deaf person?

Whosoever equals homeless, blind, deaf, orphan, widow, sick, aged, outcast, unloved, rejected, prostitute, tax collector ....Jesus died for us all.

Amazing how the sun and rain know how to shine and fall without partiality, yet we are still learning these lessons...

Indian Arrival Day at Shevon's home

2009-05-31T17:39:00.000-07:00

Saturday 30 May 2009

Shevon invited my mom and I to his home for Indian Arrival Day. My mom decided to forfeit another activity to go and I was so glad that we went.

I have a testimony to share:

I'll start off by saying that directions have never been a strength of mine. So even though I've been by Shevon's home a few times before, mostly at night, the directions were very sketchy in my head. Shevon had told me to text him so that he could give me his mom's number and she could then direct us. We texted. We got no reponse but we were on our way.

We drove through some familiar places and I could remember some of the houses but I just could not recall the street that Shevon lived in. We texted Shevon again. No response. I knew that it would be on the left side but I just did not know what street it was. I began to feel a bit disheartened and started to consider returning home. I eventually told my mom to turn at the next street so we may begin our journey back home.

It so happened that the street she pulled into seemed to be a bit familiar. I asked her to drive further in and I saw the house in the distance!!!!! I saw Ian signing to some others at the back and I was so excited that we just sort of stumbled upon the house lol. GOD IS SO GOOD!

Mom and I had to be there.

There were several precious Deaf there. The girls and I had a little one on one girl talk. We looked at a video of Deaf sports. Mom bonded with the babies. It was just a relaxing afternoon.

When we left, I realised that for those few hours that we spent with the Deaf, it felt as if my world had paused. In other words, the fusses and stresses of life were forgotten for that period and I had no care in the world. I could not help but smile as we drove away and share the way I felt with my mother. My heart and mind was at peace.

Spending time with such Precious people is undoubtedly therapeutic. It is an amazing feeling of absolute joy that is only completely realised upon leaving their presence.

Terrance and Linda's Wedding

2009-05-25T18:03:00.000-07:00

Sunday 24th May 2009

Also coming soon

Back with my Precious-es

2009-05-25T18:02:00.000-07:00

Sunday 10th May 2009

The Sunday after I returned from the trip, the Deaf were excited to hear stories and testimonies about my time in Amsterdam. I decided to tell them about my delayed flight from Suriname to Amsterdam and the different obstacles, fears and huddles I faced. In the end, I let them know that it was God who kept me and protected me. I was also able to learn a few new signs through story telling. Here is a short clip of me relating the story. It is only after looking at this video clip that I realised that everyone was really engrossed in what I was relating. I never imagined myself to be so engaging. I praise the Lord for His grace.

Trip to Suriname/Amsterdam

2009-05-25T17:59:00.000-07:00

Thursday 16th April to Sunday 3rd May 2009

Plants on the way!

2009-04-15T18:12:00.000-07:00

Wednesday 15th April 2009

Today I had a good time at ADC. This was my second visit since the planting project and I'm pleased to report that things have progressed nicely. There are now lettuces and patchoi plants in the planting boxes and sooner or later they'll be ready for sale and consumption. I'm excited that what was once a vision, is now a reality!!

I was also able to speak to the hearing students about the use of the terms "dumb" and "mute" when refering to Deaf or Hard of Hearing persons. I explained quite passionately that Deaf persons are not stupid and that they do have a voice. I told them that most times they have to explain something to me and help me understand! lol I also emphasized that they are not voiceless and pointed out that they could be heard when they are laughing!

I'm ALWAYS happy to make a difference and I know that the students' mindset was changed. It was also very refreshing to see the students sign and interact with the Deaf!

God ordained teaching

2009-04-13T15:43:00.000-07:00

Sunday 12th April 2009

I feel as if Deaf Church was God-ordained today. Very few Deaf persons came but I know that God was at work and that the Holy Spirit was with us. Stephen, Fatima, Crystal, Roger, Sindy and I decided to pray for different needs while we waited for the others to come. This little prayer group was truly powerful. Before praying, we identified different prayer requests and then we held hands in a circle and prayed one by one. Eventually, Denyse and her son (hearing), Catherine, Shevon, Neil, his wife, Joel and Jeremy came. We prayed for Mama and her family, Siquina and Obe’s marriage, Deaf marriages, Deaf who have strayed from God’s presence, the sick, the unbelievers, safety, the government and the summit. We prayed and we prayed.

As time elapsed, we started very productive discussions on the Deaf and critical issues were raised. Shevon told us that he read on the newspapers that a Deaf man from San Fernando had stabbed a hearing person. Denyse told us about another Deaf man who committed suicide some months ago. Of course we also mentioned the Deaf man from Gasparillo who was beaten to death (see previous post entitled “Deaf Mute Beaten to Death”. We prayed for God’s protection.

Somehow the discussion smoothly flowed into the topic of Deaf marriages. Now I want to pause so you may understand the context and settings of these discussions. The initial six of us decided to pray for one another and then probably visit Faith Centre (after several invitations extended by Thaddaeus) because we assumed that no more Deaf were coming. So we did not bother to arrange the chairs for Deaf Church. We were already moved to the Training Room and we simply occupied a small space in between the tables and chairs to pray. Nothing was really planned or premeditated. YET, God in His wisdom had a plan and a purpose.

Yes, so a discussion on Deaf marriages – current marriages, a marriage carded for today and those pending – was seamlessly initiated. This seamlessly integrated discussion emerged into an entire teaching on marriages!! PRAISE THE LORD!!! The transition was so smooth, that God alone could receive glory for it! Denyse simply began by expressing her opinion about Deaf persons rushing to get married then she began some strong and sound marriage counselling possibly without even realising it! She emphasized Family Devotions and at the end of the teaching challenged the men present to begin having devotions with their families. She urged the wives to support their husbands and in cases where the man refused to have devotions, for the woman to initiate it regardless. It was a powerful and timely lesson.

I looked on and my heart was swollen with gratitude and awe of God who heard the cry and longing from the Deaf to have one such session. Denyse was really passionate about the topic and stressed that she will continue teaching about marriage. GLORY TO GOD IN THE HIGHEST!

A Great Good Friday!!

2009-04-10T17:09:00.000-07:00

Friday 10th April 2009

Today I went Mayaro for the second time with my Deaf family. I got up this morning a little indecisive as to whether I should go or whether I should stay home and rest for the holiday. I actually told my mom that I wasnt going then I changed my mind.

The day was wonderful! I am even bold enough to say that it was one of the best days of my life :D

Deaf church was great. Ryan testified of God's goodness. He told of how he fasted and prayed and was able to do his driving test and get his license. I was so proud of him! I remember going with him to do his regulations and now I was looking on as he testified about how he got his license!! :D He said that two other Deaf persons were there when he went to do the test but he was the only one that passed. He also talked about one of the officers constantly checking to make sure he was okay. The favour of God was upon him!! Smile =)

Roger taught about Jesus washing his disciples feet and also about the woman who washed Jesus' feet with her tears and dried them with her hair. After the Word, we washed each other's feet. This was a very interesting experience for me. Each person stood before the other and told them something special like "I love you, you are my brother/sister in Christ, we are family" and proceeded to wash their feet and dry it. I reminded everyone that we serve one another in Christ and I felt as if something truly remarkable and amazing was unfolding before me!

I was also able to meet some new Precious Deaf people. Ryan I knew before, but was ever so glad to spend some more time with him since I hardly see him. I meet Rovin for the first time. He was a bit quiet but I was so happy to meet him and I took special care to make him feel loved. I meet two Deaf families and another Deaf woman. They were all very friendly and pleasant. I am always intrigued by the children of the Deaf and the love and unity among Deaf spouses and their children. They seem to have a close knittedness that is often absent in a hearing family.

Today was Shiva's birthday!! Roger had him face the white board and quizzed him as everyone prepared his cake. When he turned around and saw the cake, he was shocked!! lol I remember him thanking his parents for everything they're done for him. There is a deep sense of gratitute and humility that emanates from Shiva and his parents (Bobby and Mala). In fact, I am still amazed at how innovated and creative Bobby is!! Oh! I forgot to mention their home has transformed since the last and also first time I've been there. Bobby made use of the pattern on the galvanise and some broken tile and cement to make a unique step. Mala also cooked lunch and baked muffins and cake to celebrate her son's eighteenth birthday. Oh how I love this family!

After eating, we crossed the road and spent some time on the beach. I learnt a little about fishing and even tried to fish a little. I caught no fish lol but I am confident that I was one of the happiest "gyals" on the beach! What amazing is that some time during the week while I was passing the Creek to go home, I saw some people fishing and I silently wished I had an opportunity to fish. Now here I was holding a fishing rod at the end of the same week. Does my God know the desires of my heart? He sure does.

When we left Mala's home, we visited a Deaf woman named Paula. I chuckle to myself as I think about what took place. It so happened that Roger told me that he wanted to visit a Deaf person on our way to Mayaro and he asked me to remind him on our way home. I forgot :( Roger also forgot but somehow God just nudged him and he abruptly made a turn in a side road and when we looked to the left the house was there! Wow! All the Deaf in the van went to Paula's home to visit her. She was shy. After talking to her for a few moments, I realised that we had planned to visit this same woman on Sunday after church! This was the same Deaf woman who does not have much Deaf friends and her sister called me on Saturday to arrange a meeting (see post dated 04-04-09). It's amazing how God operates because she was spending the Easter holidays with her parents in Mayaro!

After this visit Roger took us to visit two Deaf girls who are married to two hearing brothers in Rio Claro, then a Deaf man in Princes Town. I was happy to meet ALL the Deaf! I had an Easter Production to attend at 6:30pm and I could not be bothered by the time!! It was the greatest Good Friday ever!

Deaf Mute Beaten to Death

2009-04-07T15:46:00.000-07:00

Tuesday 7th April 2009

This article was in one of our local newspapers today.

It appears that the Deaf man who we're called Fred, then Krishna is really Mr Deoraj Boysie. (See previous posts dated 09.11.08, 31.01.09, 04.04.09, 05.04.09). I read the article and was disheartened to know that he was "beaten with a concrete block outside the abandoned house he called home in Gasparillo last week...He was found unconscious bloodied and battered outside the house..."

I cant help but feel that cut at my heart as I wonder if and how things may have been different had we met him. The Deaf who went to visit him had loved him even though they never met him. We heard his story and our hearts went out to him. I am changed. Sigh..

Day 1 of Planting Project

2009-04-06T14:51:00.000-07:00

Monday 6th April 2009

I did not go to work today (I hope no one from work is reading lol). I planned to do some outstanding things that needed to be done but I ended up going to ADC. Some students from Siparia Senior went to ADC to start a planting project which is due to be completed on next week Friday.

Again, God has given His Deaf children favour! Mama and Papa had expressed a desire to start using the land to plant produce. The Deaf had began to cut the grass but I was really unsure as to how we were to actually go about planting lol. Of course I was confident that God will make a way!! Didnt He make so many ways in times passed when I had not a clue of how I was to get something done!!! Oh yes He did! So making productive use of land is a small matter for such a big God.

I had approached my mom about helping out with the project on Sunday 22nd March 2009. Would you believe in the few days that followed she was able to get a group of students from her school to assist!! Isn't God awesome!! I remember how she always came to mind everytime the topic was raised.

What a wonderful day today was! The students came but Lisa was the only Deaf of the four who made a commitment to come, that showed up. I was prompted to go to ADC after discovering that she was there alone. I believe that God had put all these things in place! When mom and I arrived, Lisa and I were able to teach the students the alphabet in sign language and it was obvious that they were enjoying themselves. It was clear that they loved her.

I was also happy to spend some one on one time with her. When I texted her and told her not to worry and that I was coming, she replied "Ok. Fine. Smile." That last word melted my heart. I just wanted to go to make sure she was ok. The smiles on the all the students' faces were priceless! They were looking forward to coming tomorrow and they were all too excited about learning sign language.

What's more, their teacher volunteered to teach the Deaf English once she learns sign language. I was OVERJOYED!! I told Lisa that God is blessing us already since we started to use the land!! I am so excited for what these 8days will hold for these young children and for ADC. Already I could see that just one petite Deaf woman has changed their lives in a few hours...I wonder what God has in store for them tomorrow! Wish I could be there!!

Deaf Church at ADC

2009-04-06T14:29:00.000-07:00

Sunday 5th April 2009

This was a wonderful Sunday. We had Deaf Church at ADC and it was one of the best services. The Deaf had the opportunity to go to a spot of choice and talk to God. It was really something beautiful to see them dispersed around the centre spending one on one time with God. The Word was good and the the worship was awesome. In the end, everyone was glad they came.

I am happy to report that it was also the first day that the Deaf were allowed to drive the church van!!! We praised God for it!!

Nearing the end of the service, I received a phone call. Fred whose real name is Krishna (see previous post) had died... I reported the news to the Deaf and everyone was a bit shaken. I know that this news cut at my heart. I could not help but wonder if things would have been different if we had reached him in time. I was dazed and I felt that he deserved to be loved and to belong and I thought that we may have been able to give him that opportunity. I wanted to be his friend, hear his story, look into his eyes and let him know that there is a God who loves Him! Yet I dear not question God's authority.

Despite Krishna's death, I was happy as I always am, to spend time with my Precious-es!! I have an even greater zeal to meet the Deaf woman who is friendless and lonely. My prayer is that she too, like so many Deaf, will come to know God's love, acceptance and peace! My God us as His beacon of hope and channel of love.

More Deaf to Love :D

2009-04-06T14:10:00.000-07:00

Saturday 4th April 2009

My Saturday could not have started off any better!! Ring ring.. I answered the phone and a woman called me concerning her Deaf sister who is basically friendless and lonely. I was ever so happy to receive the call. This was an opportunity to love another Deaf person and in loving them, show them God's love - an agape love. When the conversation ended I could not help but be happy! :D Another precious person would have a place that she could belong and people that she could call family! Isn't that wonderful?!

That afternoon, I got a call from a friend of mine. She informed me that Fred (see previous post dated Sun 9th Nov 08) whose real name is .... was hospitalised. Remember Fred? He was the Deaf, homeless man from Gasparillo living in the abandoned home. He was also lonely and friendless. Well, I had already decided to talk to the Deaf leaders on the following day so we could arrange to visit him at the hospital.

I was really looking forward to finally seeing him and allowing the Deaf to witness to him and forge a lifelong friendship with him. We had attempted to meet him on two occasions (09-11-08 and 31-01-09) but were unsuccessful. I was not happy about his condition but was very hopeful and equally overjoyed about finally meeting him and loving him!

Who is like Him? The Lion and the Lamb sitted on the throne

2009-04-06T13:50:00.000-07:00

Sunday 29th March 2009

I missed Deaf Church on this day. I reached just in time to meet the Deaf then leave to visit our deaf friend Mr George Daniel. Azard, Roger, Cindy, Leela and I went to visit him but stopped by subway to eat lunch on our way there.

Lol...I think that sometimes I get so accustomed with the Deaf that I often forget that people are genuinely amazed when they see them talking or asserting their independence. I have had a similar experience whenever I'm with someone who is physically different. I guess on first sight, their differences are very apparent but once you get to the know that person and love them, you tend to forget that they are different. It has happened to me time and time again. You see their heart and everything else fades away... melts away... disappears!

It so happened that Joel and Jeremy (children of a Deaf married couple) came to subway with their parents while we were there. I just observed them as they chatted with us. Joel and Jeremy are such sweethearts! Sometimes I wonder what it is like to have Deaf parents, what sort of experiences they must have had and are having and how the children of the Deaf view the world. It is an intriguing thing to consider. Joel and Jeremy are such contented, happy, humble and loving children and it is also clear that they support and respect their parents. What a blessing they are!

Our visit to Mr Daniel was quite productive. I am glad we went. He told us a story that definitely changed our outlook on life. It's not my story to tell but it reminded me that God is the captain of our lives and a very present help in time of trouble!! He is a faithful, loving and merciful God! Who is like Him?

Our God is an AWESOME God!!

2009-04-06T13:30:00.000-07:00

Sunday 22nd March 2009

Deaf Church was at Agape Deaf Centre on this Sunday. It was my first Deaf church there and I loved it. The change in environment was so refreshing and ideal. It was satisfying to see the Deaf relax and be free while they sat and listened to God's Word outdoors with the blowing wind and natural atmosphere.

I spent my entire Sunday there and I would not have done it any other way if given the choice. The Deaf's company, Mama's company, the peacefulness and calm of the day was uncompared.

Mama and I discussed future plans and developments for the Deaf and everything just linked and connected with my spirit! It is AMAZING how God plants a seed of desire in your heart, then gives you sneak peaks along the way as He puts things in place for it to come to pass. I listened to Mama speak and I was just...AMAZED!!! Often times she speaks directly to my soul without realising it. It is such as remarkable thing to hear your dreams and vision articulated by someone else; it's as if an invisible bond is created and even though it's unseen, you know that something great is taking place!

I write with the STRONGEST conviction that this is where God wants me to be and purpose will continue to be fulfilled in my life! Our God is an awesome God!

And God, in His wisdom, teaches us how to depend on Him wholeheartedly

2009-04-06T13:16:00.000-07:00

Monday 6th April 2009

Hello Reader,

I know it been a while since I've last written...(about 6 weeks to be exact)...and for that I apologise. My role in the lives of the Deaf has not been as frequent as it used to be and even my last post attests to that. Nevertheless, I have come to realise that God is taking care of the Deaf and working things out His way.

It seems as if God in His might and wonder has directed things in such a way that the Deaf have no other choice but to depend on Him alone! I'm just observing how He is shaping them and how they are learning more and more to trust in Him wholeheartedly!!

I intend to publish four more blogs to bring you up-to-date with what has been happening...at least from my end...rest assured that these few blogs are not a reflection of the great work God is doing in the Deaf's lives from day to day.

Cast down but not destroyed (2 Corin 4:9)

2009-02-24T14:11:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 24th February 2009

I'm not sure if I mentioned this in my blog before, but I started working about three months ago and it has become increasing difficult to spend time and be involved in the lives of the precious Deaf. It is a discomforting feeling to know that I could only be available on weekends and when I do see them on Sundays for Deaf Church, I feel so disconnected from their lives.

I am not satisfied...

Some time ago a Deaf girl texted me about a personal issue that she has been going through. I felt her burden as if it were mine. My little heart just went out to her and I wanted to help in whatever way I could. I remember reflecting upon the particular circumstance and feeling so restricted and irritated because I was not available on weekdays. I went to work the following day very discouraged and with a burning desire to return to my first love...

Please understand that I am contented with my job, it's just that I would feel much more at ease if there were someone to attend to needs of the Deaf during the week. Attending Deaf Church on Sundays are just not enough. Even when I forsake the hearing service to stay with them, I still feel somewhat disconnected and ultimately dissatisfied.

Well...God is still in control. I say "have your way Father"

Mention must be made of the Bible Translation Project with SIL. Pastor Mark, Bro Nico and I had a meeting recently and I happy to report that things seem to be working out smoothly. I'm looking forward to serving the Deaf in this capacity!!

Though I may feel discouraged, I know that God is working in my life and the lives of he Deaf and He is faithful to complete the good work that He began in our lives.

I TRUST YOU LORD.

MAYARO

2009-02-01T14:57:00.000-08:00

Saturday 31st January 2009

MAYARO :)

So today some of the Deaf and I went to Mayaro to repair the roof of Bobby and Mala's home. For the past ten (10) years, Deaf Church has been taking place at their home in Mayaro allowing the Deaf community closeby to have the opportunity to hear God's Word and meet other Deaf. This was my first time there and I LOVED IT!!!

The breeze, the background waves, the overall atmosphere. It felt like I went on a one day vacation. BEAU-TI-FUL.

Mr Cleavon took a small group and I there early Saturday morning. I may have been the most excited person in the van lol. I was looking forward to going for the entire week and I was just bubbling inside on our way! I was not disappointed. I could go on and on about the wonderful atmosphere there and the scenic view but I think one of the most outstanding things is Bobby and Mala's humble, simple, awesome home! I am so glad I went!

I guess for the average person looking on, the house bears no outstanding, enviable features. I invite that person to look closer. Look again! You'll see a home built with hard work and love. Each board secured to another with a labour of love. Each stone across the pathway thoughtfully laid to warmly welcome its guests. Each room, each corner obviously well planned and constructed by the designer. Love lives there and if you take a walk further inside, you'll find contentment, joy and laughter lodging.

On this Saturday morning, I walked into a home; a home filled with people who came for one sole purpose - to repair, to rebuild, to reconstruct. I think as old, rusty sheets of galvanised were replaced with new sheets of aluzinc (not sure if that's spelt correctly), as rotted wood were replaced by sturdier, stronger lengths and those that promised to serve for some more years were ridded of termites, as old nails were replaced with new and the boards and aluzinc and nails were secured - pong pong pong - my mind was also being renewed. At the end of the day, my thoughts were revised. What was important just one week before became insignificant.

I observed how the hearing men worked with the Deaf. There was no competition, no strife, no discord; only togetherness, oneness and a work towards a specific goal. We prayed for the sun and God responded to our request. The sun was our overhead witness. No rain. Praise God! :)

Mr Cleavon came and he worked and he helped and he cut wood and he ponged and he advised and he laughed and the work of his hands revealed that his heart was with us. We had planned to leave at 4pm but Mr Cleavon simply stated that we'll leave when they have completed the roofing. lol I laugh at myself because I was keeping tabs on time (concerned about Mr Cleavon and the time I told him and the church) but Shevon was telling me not to worry and here was Mr Cleavon advising that we leave when the job was done! lol I have a habit was telling people to relax, now I have to tell myself - "Alana, relax" lolol

Mala also caught my attention - ever so humble and hard working. She reminded me of my mom. I had cut my finger while cutting some veggies and before I blinked my eyes she got a napkin to stop the bleeding and was at my side with a plaster to cover the cut. She only had to know about a request for water and it was there. I mentioned that I wanted some of her fever grass, she got up instantaneously and dug out a few pieces for me! If the boys needed something, she was on it. Mala - so hospitable and selfless; a wonderful woman, mother and wife. It is not surprising that she will open her home weekly to serve the Deaf community.

It was the first time that I met Mala's husband Bobby. He is really a skilled, resourceful and hard working man. I looked at him work and I called him the contractor of the wok! lol He knew what he was doing and he overseered the entire operation with a zeal and commitment that is uncompared. I really respect him and admire him. He was especially innovative and it was interesting to see how he was able to put everything to good use. He flipped a bottle of water over, attached it to a stick, punctured a hole in the bottle cover and used it to water the plants. He made a table with small pieces of wood. I could tell that their home was not just the warm touches of a caring wife but also the labour of a resourceful, "nothing must go to waste" husband. :) I smile to myself as I write this blog! :)

Shiva also left an impression on me. Mala and Bobby are his parents. I looked at him work with joy and as he spoke to me I could only see humility shining through. He told me about the turtles that come on the stores to make young ones. I was initially shakened when he told me that he has drunk the liquid in the turtle eggs. Bobby and everyone else insisted that it was good for strengthening the back. I'm sure I'll learn alot if I stayed there for a week. I will be a totally new person.

I want to also make mention of Colin (boy in green). He was supposed to meet us at church but we left him because he had not arrived or responded to our texts. It so happened that he travelled. A man saw him in Mayaro, called us and I directed him to the house. He dropped Colin there. Though late, though the victim of many playful "talks" about his lateness, Colin Welsh worked diligently, skillfully and purposefully. Mr Cleavon pointed this out to me and I observed him I saw a focussed Colin, hammering away, lifting and fixing and alining and working. I was proud of him. It was really good to see him doing something constructive with such concentrated attention and motivation.

This week I began reading a book by Kay Warren called "Dangerous Surrender". She states:

"...if you have food in your refrigerator, clothes on your back, a roof overhead, and a place to sleep, you are richer than 75 percent of the people in this world! If you have any money in the bank some in your wallet and some spare change in a dish somewhere, you are among the top 8 percent of the world's wealthy; 92 percent have less to live on than you do! If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the pangs of starvation, you are ahead of 500 million other people in the world. If you can attend worship services at church without the fear of harassment, arrest, torture, or death, you are more blessed than three billion people in the world." (p. 22)

Proverbs 28:6 Better a poor man whose walk is blameless than a rich man whose ways are perverse

Proverbs 22:2 Rich and poor have this in common: The LORD is the Maker of them all.

Matthew 16:26 What does it profit a manif he should gain the whole worldand lose his own soul?

1 Timothy 6:6-12 6But godliness with contentment is great gain.7For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. 8But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. 9People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction. 10For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs. 11But you, man of God, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness. 12Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.

1 Timothy 6:17-19 17Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment. 18Command them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share. 19In this way they will lay up treasure for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may take hold of the life that is truly life.

Matthew 6:20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:

This trip to Mayaro changed my life.

My Christmas in January

2009-01-28T16:46:00.000-08:00

Sunday 25th January 2008

Today was a long, full and wonderful day :)

I think this may have been one of the best Deaf Church sessions I've been to. There was fast and prayer but with a difference. The Deaf were worshipping using their own songs and words :D. Man Di had suggested that they do this and to witness it actually unfold was pretty amazing :D Denyse had commented that she thought that the Deaf had grown and from the short time that I've been with them I have noticed that overall development. They are no longer leaning on the hearing community to get things done. I smile when I think about the good work God began and is faithful to complete in this Ministry.

I was also able to testify for the first time in Deaf Church. I told them about my experience on Monday and how I learnt to trust God and depend on His Word (Exodus 14:14 "The LORD is fighting for you! So be still!"). I think that I've also grown. My Sign Language has developed over these last 5 months and had never expected that I would have learnt so much in such a short interval. Isn't God awesome?

:) I had the opportunity to see Uncle Elred for the first time this year. I consider myself to be blessed to know the Anthony Family and I felt so comfortable with each member. Although I have not spent much time with them, I continue to testify that I feel as if I've know them all for years! I look up to and respect Uncle Elred as a daughter does her father. I have officially adopted Aunty Olga and Uncle Elred as my "Mama" and "Papa" [:) again]

Well, on this Sunday, we planned to visit Mr George Daniel and were momentarily doubtful as to whether or not we should go because he has not responded to the calls we made. We considered making an appointment to see him at another time but Roger expressed an interest to go so we WENT FORWARD BY FAITH. Mr George Daniel was home and the visit was a success. I am so glad we went!!! Could I have spent my Sunday any better way?...no. The joy and contentment that filled Mr Daniel's home was priceless. I looked at Roger and Mr Daniel playing drafts with a zeal that could only be understood when one witnesses it. They both presented the other with a challenge that was welcomed by each.

After this visit, Azard, Shevon, Roger, Ian and I went to Pizza Hut. I was completely contented. If I never said directly that I prefer the company of the Deaf, I'm saying it now. I laughed, we joked, we talked, we shared, we ate, we overate and we laughed some more. Wow! I never imagined that I would have been able to fit so naturally with such precious friends...look at me now :)

When you're with someone you trust in

never needing to pretend

Someone who helps you know yourself

You know you're with a friend

So after this trip, Roger and I went to church to wait for Mama and Papa. I valued this evening. Roger was able to experience Hour of Power. We worshipped together and it was one of those experiences not easily forgotten. It was really special to me. We signed the songs together as the congregation sang out loud. :)

What a day! Eventually when Mama and Papa arrived and collected Roger, in my haste, I fell. I'm still recovering from that fall but this fall in no way represented the height of joy I felt on this day - My Christmas in January!

God will take care of us

2009-01-24T14:56:00.001-08:00

Friday 23rd January 2009

On this afternoon, the Deaf leaders met at church with Aunty Olga for a meeting. I was tired. After this week I am certain that activities of any sort between Monday and Friday are out of the question for me.

During this meeting, after this meeting and on my way home I felt discouraged :( The prayer within my heart was for God to send help. In fact I think I unconsciously blurted out "God send help" during the meeting because I was beginning to feel pressured and overwhelmed (not to mention tired).

There were things to be done and the universal question was "who?" Who would do this and who would do that and I could not commit to anything. I could see the "who?" on their faces and I felt the blow to my heart when I could not say "I will go". I may have seemed detached to all present - I'm not sure - but my mind was consumed and maybe a bit shocked with the reality that the seasons in my life have changed and God was doing a new thing. Somehow I feel that He wants the Deaf to learn to depend on Him ALONE yet I cannot say.

What I do know is that God will make a way when there seems to be no way. I wanted to cry and I admit that it bothered me deeply but I trust that God will provide for the Deaf as He ALWAYS does.

Our life is in His hands.

I am also learning that it is NOT about me. So His will be done.

Meeting with Mr George Daniel

2009-01-24T14:55:00.001-08:00

Tuesday 20th January 2009

After work Aunty Olga took me to Morvant to meet Mr George Daniel. He is an advocate and pioneer for the rights of Disabled Persons.

A priviledge.

That is what it was like to meet such a wonderful man. To be in a room with Aunty Olga and Mr George Daniel felt so natural. I felt like I just fit in so naturally. I listened as they spoke and I could only hear their hearts speaking. Two wonderful, passionate persons.

I will never forget this exchange between the two:

Aunty Olga: "So George who will go if you're not there?"

Mr Daniel: "Who else will go?"

I also remember very vividly when he related how he was treated with disregard by some disabled persons and when they asked for his assistance he HAD TO help them. He said "it's not about me". He stated that he was hurt as any man will be but he had to serve his people. That reminded me of a lesson I learnt some time ago - love is sacrifice.

They say that a great man does not announce that he is great. When you leave the presence of someone great you just know it.

George Daniel is a great man.

follow these links to learn more about him:
http://oneaccordtt.org/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=58&Itemid=2

http://outamehhead.blogspot.com/2007/07/mentally-disabled-government.html

http://v1.dpi.org/lang-en/about/executive_detail?contact=175

Exodus 14:14

2009-01-19T16:51:00.002-08:00

Monday 19th January 2009

Monday morning bright and early Aunty Olga called me. Even though the Deaf were passing their driving test they were getting a license valid for only one year, instead of three years!! I contacted Disability Affairs Unit (Ministry of Social Development) and DRETCHI on Aunty Olga's request to put a long story short, no help was forthcoming.

Reader, I honestly cannot remember the last time I was so upset and angry. I cannot remember the last time I became so stirred and moved and aggressive and vocal about an issue. I do not consider myself to be confrontational or even assertive. Yet there I was voicing my opinion and my displeasure about the issue to the woman on the other line. God bless her patient soul. lol.

I think the most upsetting thing for me was not the descrimination against the Deaf but more the fact that there was a Policy approved to allow them to have a three year license like the hearing community. My displeasure was significantly and aggitatedly aroused to know that a Policy was made and was not implemented! What use is a Policy without effect??? Why wasn't this Policy available to the relevant authorities at Licensing Office??? Why should the Deaf have to fight for something that has already been approved???????? Of course the wonderfully patient woman at the end of the line had to endure my verbal blows and was not spared from hearing my thoughts on the matter.

Would a man fight for something he believes in? I have believed in many things, including my own rights and have never really actively nor aggressively fought for them. I remember being told to assert myself and stand up for my rights as a child growing up. I was too shy. "People going to walk over you Alana, you have to stand up for your rights!" lol Here I was, speaking out. I am in awe...even when I think about it now.

Well, my peace was disrupted and I couldnt refocus. I was just so upset. Then God spoke to my spirit. The battle is not yours. It is the Lord's.

Exodus 14:14

The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.

That afternoon while I was on my way home Aunty Olga called. The Licensing authorities found the Memorandum permitting the Deaf person to have a three years license.

Exodus 14:14

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.

A Wonderful Sunday with Aunty Olga and the Deaf

2009-01-19T16:51:00.001-08:00

Sunday 18th January 2009

This was a lovely Sunday.

I recall being particularly contented during Deaf Church :) What peace comes from being just where you're intended to be :) (I smile to myself again).

After Deaf Church we drove to D'abadie to Divine Encounter Fellowship and I was priviledged to be a part of a predominantly Deaf audience, partcipating in a motivational session. Gillian, the motivational speaker was so effective and energetic and she was able to touch the lives of the Deaf even though she spoke through an interpreter. I thought it was just so fitting for her to focus on the life of Helen Keller. The Deaf were able to see that they could accomplish their dreams despite apparent obstables.

The response was great. At the end of the session, a few Deaf persons were able to share their dreams and visions. I think this was the most memorable part of the day for me. The passion for change within them was so evident. There was an expressed desire for change; a passion for the Deaf to be educated and go to universities as well as for the Deaf to preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I was moved. Right then and there I believed that it could be done, I believed in them, I believed that they can do it!Inwardly, I cheered them on from my position at the back.

It was also good to see Mr John Henry interacting with the Deaf. He was particularly entertaining and clearly passionate. May God bless him and his wife. I was able to meet and interact with a few new Deaf persons (new to me at least).

After this session, Aunty Olga took some of the Deaf to Trincity Mall. I MUST mention Catherine. It was the first time she went to this mall and even though her brace (I'm not sure what its called) slowed her down physically, I know her heart was racing with life and excitement. I heard it in her laugh and saw it in her eyes.

Yes, it was a good day.

To EVERYTHING there is a season

2009-01-19T16:49:00.000-08:00

Saturday 17th January 2009

On this afternoon, Aunty Olga, the Deaf Leaders and myself went to ADC for a leadership meeting. In my view, the meeting was very productive; we were able to discuss many relevant issues and concerns.

Isn't it amazing that sometimes we discover things about ourself through our very own selves revealing it to us? You see, I had not realised how much I've grown since I've began to work. I feel as if I've developed a little more professional and leadership skills. I was genuinely shocked at my assertiveness during the meeting. As much as I am willing to help the Deaf, I cant do it at the expense of my health. Now that I have the added responsibility of work, my availability will now be limited to weekends and more specifically Sundays. I just couldnt believe I was able to say that lol (and without rehearsing too lol).

On further thought, didnt God promise that He will give us boldness? So why am I giving credit to a secular job?? To God be the glory! For it is not by might, nor by power BUT by my SPIRIT says the Lord (Zechariah 4:6). It is the HOLY SPIRIT that gave me this boldness.

Anyway, what's more is that it was not only refreshing to express this but also liberating to be understood in return. I must know that to everything there is a season -what God required of me in 2008 may not be what he requires in 2009. I MUST prioritize, stay focussed and do only what He has called me to do.

Ecclesiastes 3:1
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven

My heart was at home: I felt contented, at peace and appreciated :-)

2009-01-11T15:18:00.000-08:00

Sunday 11th January 2009

Psalm 118:24

This is the day which the LORD has made; Let us rejoice and be glad in it.

Today was a good day.

As I walked through the door into Deaf Church I smiled!!! AUNTY OLGA!!! YAY!!! There she was teaching the Deaf. I felt so happy to see her! Actually, I was looking forward to spending some time with my Deaf family and to see over 20 Deaf persons and Aunty Olga was just an added bonus!! I felt like I was finally at home after a long journey and my heart and mind was at rest.

I stood at the back. I looked on. I was contented. I belonged.

I looked at Aunty Olga teaching and I must have been smiling outwardly because I know my heart bore a smile :-) Today, was different. They say absence makes the heart fonder. Who is "they"? I'm not sure but "they" do know what they're talking about. Today I loved. Is it possible to love from afar? Well I stood, looked on and my heart was filled with so much love for the Deaf. It was as if I saw them from fresh, new eyes. I remember Gerard turning around and giving me the warmest, most genuine and energetic hello! I felt the way I feel when a baby smiles at me. So precious are my friends.

When I think about how natural it is for me to bond with the Deaf I'm sometimes amazed lol. So often in hearing social circles and gatherings I feel displaced. I never have to think when I'm with my Deaf family. I'm simply Alana. I forget all the concerns of life. It's like a true vacation when I'm with them! I really appreciated and cherished every exchange and greeting and hug and smile and laughter after Deaf Church today. It's what I've been missing for these pass few weeks.

Well the leaders of Deaf Church had a meeting after the service with Aunty Olga. Each person present had the opportunity to say something - probably confess a sin or testify or relate a concern. I was finally able to let them know how grateful I am for their presence in my life. How welcomed, loved and comfortable I feel with them and how God was able to come through for me even when I was overwhelmed. This was my simple, heartfelt contribution. Aunty Olga told me that she consider me to be her other daughter and she expressed how it seems as if we've known each other for years when we're together like kindred spirits :) God orders our footsteps doesnt He? I also feel as if I've known Uncle Elred, Siquina and Omar for years!

The most moving thing about this afternoon is what Shevon said about me. I cant remember what exactly he said but I do know that I was deeply touched. For the first time since I'm with the Deaf, tears welled up in my eyes. I felt appreciated :)

What does God have in store for 2009? I'm not sure exactly but the buds hint of some hidden treasure and the yellow blooms say ever so softly, sweetly yet strongly that great, bright and wonderful things are ahead! I recognise the struggle of the blossoming but I also see its beauty! What a wonder it is! Our God is an awesome God.

Thanks Bonnie

2009-01-10T16:59:00.000-08:00

Saturday 10th January 2009

Tonight I want to thank Bonnie publicly for the e-mail she sent me dated 08/01/09. I now viewed her mail and it has been such a blessing and encouragement to me.

Hi Alana,
Found your blog today and was moved by your love and faith for the deaf ministry.

I guess God knows I needed to hear some positive words about deaf ministry.

Am finding it very lonely and discouraging at the moment....but I appreciated your blog today.
Thanks for sharing on internet so God can lead people like me to find it on days when HE knew I needed some encouragement.

Thanks.
Bonnie in FL, USA
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Take a look:
<http://bonnieblessings.blogspot.com/>
<http://netministries.org/see/churches.exe/ch29266>

Sometimes I feel discouraged and I wonder if these posts are making a difference at all. Then I console myself knowing that through this blog I am able to see God's hand upon my life after meditating upon what He has done. I am blessed to know that it has been a blessing to others.

Tonight I came home feeling a bit displaced and Bonnie's email was so uplifting! I guess He knew I needed some encouragement.

I really miss spending time with my precious Deaf friends and I just want tomorrow to come so that I may see them. At times when I feel like I dont belong, I grow to appreciate their company, friendship and presence more and more.

Oh precious Deaf! Would you ever know how much my life has changed because of you?!

John 15:13

2009-01-09T19:48:00.000-08:00

Friday 9th January 2009

It is with burning, swollen eyes, moist nostrils, and a warm breath that I write this blog tonight. I dont know where to start. I am COMPLETELY broken before God and even before myself. Could we ever comprehend His love...so unconditional.

John 15:13

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

In 2002 I attended a Youth Convention at San Fernando Open Bible Church. This was my first youth convention of this kind. I will never forget the song sung that night: "I want to know what love is, I want you to show me, I want to feel what love is, I know you can show me..." (1984) Those words got my attention. Maybe it articulated the words of my little heart. I wonder if Mick Jones knew that those words would resonate in my heart and touch a rejected, fatherless, lonely girl almost 8 years after he wrote it.

I did find the answer Mr Jones. lol

At the end of my reading of A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens (1859) I believe I had a simliar "burning, swollen eyes, moist nostrils, warm breath" experience. Syndey Carton was and will forever be the hero of that novel.

"It is a far, far better thing that I do than I have ever done; it is a far, far better rest that I go to, than I have ever known"

Then I understood it. LOVE IS SACRIFICE. Mick Jones may not have read Dickens' novel.

I looked at Kal Hoo Naa Hoo (2003) and yes I had that "burning, swollen eyes, moist nostrils, warm breath" experience once more. The Notebook (2004) also held the answer to Mr Jones question. LOVE IS SACRIFICE.

I thought I had understood it each time it re-presented itself before me. Each time I was broken, I thought I had fully grasped what love essentially meant. Then tonight the real answer was whispered in my spirit!

Seven Pounds (2008) written by Grant Nieporte. LOVE IS SACRIFICE.

John 15:13

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

I cried.

Throughout this movie I cried. I cried for the unloved. I cried for myself. I wanted to know a love so strong, so unconditional, so sacrificial. A story about one man sacrificing his organs to save the lives of others and atone for the lives he took touched me.

Then it was whispered, "I gave my entire life" and I saw the image of my dying Saviour Jesus with outstretched arms on the cross!!!!!!!! That blood he shed was for me! His life was given in order for me to have life and have it abundantly! He knew no sin yet he became sin in order for me to have life!

2 Corinthians 5:21

God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

Didn't Mick Jones know that the answer was in John 3:16, John 15:13 and the entire Bible all along?

To truly love means to give and to give without wanting in return. Love, Agape love, is unconditional and sacrificial.

1 Corinthians 2:9-10

2009-01-07T17:27:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 7th January 2009

9But, as it is written, "What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined,what God has prepared for those who love him"—
10these things God has revealed to us through the Spirit. For the Spirit searches everything, even the depths of God.

Leaders Meeting

2009-01-07T16:49:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 6th January 2009

Today the First Church of the Open Bible San Fernando had its first Leaders Meeting for 2009. I just want to highlight some key scripture verses mentioned in this meeting. I hold strong to God's promises for the body and by extension the Deaf Ministry for 2009. This is the year of the anointing!

Proverbs 28:20

A faithful man will abound with blessings,

But he who makes haste to be rich will not go unpunished.

Exodus 23:19-26

19"You shall bring the choice first fruits of your soil into the house of the LORD your God "You are not to boil a young goat in the milk of its mother.
Conquest of the Land 20"Behold, I am going to send an angel before you to guard you along the way and to bring you into the place which I have prepared.
21"Be on your guard before him and obey his voice; do not be rebellious toward him, for he will not pardon your transgression, since My name is in him.
22"But if you truly obey his voice and do all that I say, then I will be an enemy to your enemies and an adversary to your adversaries.
23"For My angel will go before you and bring you in to the land of the Amorites, the Hittites, the Perizzites, the Canaanites, the Hivites and the Jebusites; and I will completely destroy them.
24"You shall not worship their gods, nor serve them, nor do according to their deeds; but you shall utterly overthrow them and break their sacred pillars in pieces.
25"But you shall serve the LORD your God, and He will bless your bread and your water; and I will remove sickness from your midst.
26"There shall be no one miscarrying or barren in your land; I will fulfill the number of your days.

Psalm 105:15

Do not touch My anointed ones,

And do My prophets no harm.

Hebrews 1:9

You have loved righteousness and hated lawlessness; therefore God, your God has anointed you with the oil of gladness above your companions.

Leviticus 21:9-15

9'Also the daughter of any priest, if she profanes herself by harlotry, she profanes her father; she shall be burned with fire.
10'The priest who is the highest among his brothers, on whose head the anointing oil has been poured and who has been consecrated to wear the garments, shall not uncover his head nor tear his clothes;
11nor shall he approach any dead person, nor defile himself even for his father or his mother;
12nor shall he go out of the sanctuary nor profane the sanctuary of his God, for the consecration of the anointing oil of his God is on him; I am the LORD.
13'He shall take a wife in her virginity.
14'A widow, or a divorced woman, or one who is profaned by harlotry, these he may not take; but rather he is to marry a virgin of his own people,
15so that he will not profane his offspring among his people; for I am the LORD who sanctifies him.'"

Deaf Church 2009

2009-01-07T16:29:00.000-08:00

Sunday 4th January 2009

This was the first Deaf Church Service for 2009. As I looked on at the Service I felt a bit removed but at the same time I also felt contented to know that Deaf Church could continue with or without a hearing person. I praise God for the Deaf leadership and I thank Him for their faithfulness and commitment to the Ministry. Ian continues to be an impacting teacher, Shevon continues to be an effective leader and Roger continues to be tender hearted.

I declare GREAT and POWERFUL things for the Deaf Ministry in 2009. I decree that God's anointing will flow and that lives will be changed and spirits renewed. I speak a fresh anointing in the lives of the Deaf and I declare that God will do a new thing. This is the year that the Deaf will be filled with the Holy Spirit and go to higher places in Christ! It is done. I believe it and it is so.

Lunch at Sister Julia's home

2009-01-07T15:32:00.000-08:00

Saturday 3rd January 2009

Mommy, Shevon, his wife Pauline and son Mark, Roger, his wife Sindy, Ian and I went to Gasparillo at Sister Julia's home for lunch. I was really happy to see them and felt as if I hadnt seen them in such a long time. I really missed them alot! So even while I was eating and all the hearing people were talking I looked over to where they were gathered and began to communicate with my Precious-es!

I couldnt wait to finish eat to go across and talk to them. I had so much to tell about the hearing woman who visited work the previous day and about how much I missed them and wished I could be with them full-time again.

Nevertheless, I had a great time at Sister Julia's home. She and her family were very hospitable. We had all hoped to see "Fred" - the Deaf homeless man who lives in an abandoned home in her community - but we did not get to meet him. Well, God knows best!

I declare in 2009 the Deaf Ministry will be able to meet and evangelise to "Fred"! I declare that he will serve the Lord and God will deliver him and he will be loved and accepted in the family of Christ!! To God be the glory!

Refreshed by a Signing Visitor at Work

2009-01-07T15:22:00.000-08:00

Friday 2nd January 2008

This was the day after New Year's Day and I had to go out to work. I think that productivity in the office was particularly low on this day for obvious reasons lol. Well I remember feeling tired and sleepy and just about ready to go home then I heard my name faintly and I saw one of my co-workers in the distance directing a woman to me. I looked at the lady and smiled. Immediately she began signing to me!!! lol I stood instantaneously and we started to communicate in Sign Language!!

Well that exchange, though brief was all I needed to make my day! I felt so refreshed and alert after that meeting! Working full-time strips away the wonderful times I used to have with my precious Deaf friends and many times I miss them. That woman may not have known how much I appreciated her visit and her warm smile! God bless her and the Deaf she encounters!

I carry them in my heart

2008-12-31T15:03:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 31st December 2008

This is my last post for 2008. Sometime this week I was reflecting upon my year and the blessings God has so gracious bestowed. I think it was a worthwhile exercise because I was able to recall all the good things He has done and just glorify Him for His mercies favour and faithfulness. I don't deserve all the things God has given me but He is so forgiving and full of grace. I think it is a humbling experience to be blessed by God.

Psalm 8:4

What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?

In my estimation, my greatest and most rewarding, humbling and satisfying blessing was when I walked into that door of service on my Christmas Eve in August with uncertainty but still a striking surety within my heart. As complex as it is to describe, it is a simple truth that my involvement with the Deaf Ministry is the highlight of my year. It has changed my life in ways I had not imagined.

1 Corinthians 2:9

However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him"

I have grown and I have changed. My senses have been amplified to the natural, simple and priceless things around me. I have found a part of me that I had lost and I feel as if I'm rediscovering who I am. Someday I was reviewing the Christmas pictures I took with my deaf friends and for the first time in a long while I saw that my smile was not plastered. I am just able to be myself and I'm most comfortable in their company that it's hard to stop smiling. I'm not sure how I've helped them but if I was able to touch a life the way they have touched mine, then I would have done something amazingly wonderful in 2008.

Reader, I'll have you know that it is the deaf who have loved this unloved child and accepted this rejected person. Know that no matter how much academic achievements and secular applauses you've gained nothing compares to touching and changing lives. I have found no greater joy than the joy of serving God and making a difference.

I also have to mention that I've seized the opportunity to teach my co-workers sign language. It actually started at Day 2 at the office lol. I really cant help it lol. Anyway, today three co-workers and learnt the alphabet and they promised me that by Monday they will perfect it. (The girl in the pic above did not want her face to be shown lol)

Last night I was missing my precious deaf friends oh so much! I missed their company and the liberty I experience when I'm with them. I think when I speak about them, when I try to create awareness, when I try to teach others sign language, it is my way of carrying the deaf with me. Know that I carry them always in my heart.

Luke 6:45

The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.

Right now a song of thanksgiving is flowing out of my heart. Here are some of the words:

"I have so much to thank God for

So many wonderful blessings and so many open doors

For every mountain you brought me over

For every trail you've seen me through

For every blessing

Allelujah

For this I give you praise"

Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also (Matt 6:21)

2008-12-29T16:38:00.000-08:00

Sunday 28th December 2008

Today I met Aunty Olga's daughter Siquina and her finance Obie at church. I must admit that our meeting was a bit dramatic lol. I remember walking into the church car park and seeing Omar burst through the church door pointing me lol. Then I saw Siquina right behind him smiling away :) I bypassed Omar and hugged Siquina! I was so happy to see her! I felt as if I were bonding with family. I can't really explain why but I feel as if I've known Uncle Elred, Aunty Olga, Siquina and Omar for such a long time, when in reality I'm now really getting acquainted with the family lol.

After Siquina and I exchanged such warm greetings, I hugged my dear Omar and was introduced to Obie. Actually, for a very brief moment when I first saw him, I mistook him for Uncle Elred lol. He was so pleasant and charming. It was truly a joyous moment for me. For months I've been communicating with both Siquina and Omar via internet and to finally enjoy their company was really fulfilling. I knew that if no young person could relate to the experiences and joys of serving God in the Deaf Ministry, at least they would. I suppose the loneliness I felt supporting the Deaf over the past few months was soothed by their presence. That's exactly what it is. I know that in the past week or so when Omar was with the Deaf I was exceptionally happy to have his company as a fellow youth.

Sometimes I feel alone and inadequate not only because I have no formal training in Sign Language and a rudimentary but developing understanding of deaf culture but also because at times I am physically alone. I rely on God to teach me and direct me and I know He has set me apart for His purpose. So even though I feel alone at times, God is ALWAYS with me. Yet it is refreshing to have young people who share similar passions like Man Di, Siquina and Omar.

Well, on this afternoon I attended a gospel concert our church was hosting at Mannie Ramjohn Stadium. I think that it is safe to say that this was the first event that I've been to with only hearing people since I've been with the Deaf. At first it was strange. I looked on and I just felt slightly out of place. I actually missed my Deaf friends and wished to have at least one deaf person next to me who I could laugh and talk with. It was heartrending. Eventually I began to adapt and all in all I enjoyed myself and consoled myself with the knowledge that God was with me and He understood the mixture of emotions I was experiencing.

I believe that no matter where you are, or what you do, nothing could tear someone away from something they truly love...not even the individual themselves.

This Christmas was a very special Christmas for me

2008-12-25T17:56:00.001-08:00

Thursday 25th December 2008

I had predicted that this Christmas will be a very special Christmas for me and it was. It was my first Christmas with my precious Deaf friends. Shevon had told everyone to wear red and we looked so lovely together. I really felt that extra special Christmas feeling when I was with them.

When Deaf Church was over I distributed some candy sticks and some cookies. I had lots of fun doing it! There was an excess of candy and cookies so I was just moving around asking everyone to take more lol. Of course Shevon never refused and his wife scolded me a few times for offering him more cookies! lol

Jonathan, one of the hearing babies of a Deaf married couple also made day. When I approached him, he looked at me, smiled, then hid his face and blushed!! I felt so special when he did that! His brothers were surprised that he smiled and that made it even more precious!

Mostly everyone was in high spirits and I simply could not have started my Christmas any better way! Even though my cousins were far away and I missed the togetherness of family on Christmas day, I had my new Deaf family and I just could not ask for more. :)

Observer's Paradox

2008-12-25T17:55:00.001-08:00

Wednesday 24th December 2008

While I was waiting on the "PT eh Sleep" Bus yesterday, something came to mind. I began to think about the Observer's Paradox and how that applied to my experience with Sign Language.

First of all, I learnt about the term when I studied Sociolinguistics. The linguist William Labov coined the term and it refers to the difficulty or paradox of acquiring untarnished data in research while the informants are being observed. The paradox lies in the informant's awareness that he is being observed and his unconscious alteration of the information he provides in order to present himself in what may be deemed, an 'appropriate' manner. Thus, the researcher gathers information that may not be a true representation of what really takes place even though the acquisition of realistic data is the researcher's main intent.

How does this relate to signing? Well, through my own minor research, I realised that my signing skills are greatly affected when I know I'm being observed by someone who knows Sign Language. My competency decreases significantly in my view and I am VERY conscious of what I am doing. This consciousness causes me to make several mistakes. On the other hand, when I'm not being observed, my signing is more natural and fluent.

So this was just a thought I had whilst waiting on the bus.

Footprints in the sand - Leona Lewis

2008-12-25T17:33:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 23rd December 2008

Another Soundtrack to add to the blog.

I came across this video as I was browsing the web. It represents so many things I want to tell my Deaf friends.

Check it out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d08X2lN669k

"Footprints In The Sand"

You walked with me

Footprints in the sand

And helped me understand

Where I'm going

You walked with me

When I was all alone

With so much unknown

Along the way

And just when I

I thought I'd lost my way

You gave me strength to carry on

That's when I heard you say

(Chorus)

I promise you

I'm always there

When your heart is filled with sorrow

And despair

And I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life flash across the sky

So many times have I been so afraid

And just when I have thought I lost my way

You give me strength to carry on

That's when I heard you say

(Chorus)

When I'm weary

Well I know you'll be there

Cause I can feel you

When you say

I promise you

I'm always there

When your heart is filled with sadness

and despair

Oh, I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

Christmas Fellowship

2008-12-24T19:17:00.000-08:00

Sunday 21st December 2008

Let me begin by saying I have NEVER seen so many Deaf persons gather at church before!! Wow! The turn out was amazing! First of all, I had little input in the overall planning of the fellowship. I just contacted a few invited hearing people. That's it. Everything else was administered by the Deaf leaders. I am really proud of them all.

The previous Sunday at Deaf Church, each person chose a name to give a gift to as well as a food item to bring to the fellowship. Well, "dat was food!" There were so many cakes and drinks that they eventually gave cakes away as prizes for games lol. Yes, our cup was running over in abundance. The food went well together and everything was sufficient.

We opened with a few people and as the day progress more people kept joining. Among the specially invited guests present were Pastor Mark, Sister Pearl, Adele, Winette and my mom. Presentations were made to these people for their support in the Deaf Ministry. Denyse, Nadine and Omar were also there. Sister Pearl was present at the former half of the fellowship and was able to experience typical Deaf Church activites like prayer, singing, Bible quizzes and dramatisation or miming of scripture verses. All games were Bible oriented and tested everyone's knowledge of Bible stories.

Roger mimed the story of the ten lepers who Jesus healed and only one returned (Luke 17:11-19). This was the first time I witnessed miming by the Deaf and I was very impressed. I remember Sister Pearl saying that she was so glad she came while they were miming.

There was much laughter and interaction. All in all, it was a great fellowship. When Pastor Mark arrived he looked at the number of people and said "This is nice". He was able to sit and interact with some of the Deaf present even though he did not know sign language. It was good to see him interacting with them. What was even better to watch was when he held Shevon's new born baby fondly in his arms :)

I was also able to get to know Omar a little better in the midst of all his hard work. I cant help but feel like he is the brother I've always had. I cant believe that I've only now formally met him lol. He has a wonderful sense of humour and he so easy to talk to. I am just amazed at how God orders things. I am definitely no social butterfly yet God places me with people who I feel comfortable with and seem to fit with. I think that's so amazing! Praise God!

As the games progressed, I was eventually called upon to participate. Nadine and Denyse were my competitors lol. We had to list the names of the books from the New Testament in order but BACKWARDS lol. To be quite frank - I don't even know the books in order from first to last! lol Anyway, some way somehow, I was the last man standing even though I was unable to recite all the books. I won a pear and a lovely pair of green earrings :) I was also among the large group receiving a pear/apple just because it was their first Christmas Fellowship with the Deaf.

The gift exchange was also successful and Ian skilfully addressed all inconsistencies. Again, I was really impressed by the planning and organisation. Everyone was able to get a gift. I had bought a gift for a Deaf boy who did not come and so I had to give this gift to Gerard. I was happy and ready and willing to do that!! It was an absolute pleasure to give this gift to Gerard because I felt that he deserved to get something special for Christmas and I know that he would appreciate it above all else. When he opened the gift, the smile on his face was priceless. The joy of Christmas flooded my heart there and then.

I MUST note all the precious babies that were at the Fellowship. Krystal's baby was silent as usual but actively running up and down the room enjoying and entertaining herself. She seems to love other babies :) What was most precious about her is when she began to sign with her little fingers and sweet expression. I thought it was the most fascinating thing to witness!!

Well Shevon's baby slept through the Fellowship with his cute little self. Crystal's baby was the SWEETEST, most ADORABLE and CUTEST baby ever! This was the first time that I saw her and I fell in love instantaneously!! The first time I looked at her she looked at me with her bright little eyes and gave me the most precious and wonderful smile in the world! I AM NOT OVEREXAGGERATING. I think she was the highlight of my day. I couldnt take my eyes off her. Awwwwww :D

This was the BEST fellowship I've ever been to. I enjoyed myself thoroughly and I enjoyed everyone's company completely. I was also happy to know that the Deaf were able to come to a safe place to celebrate the joy of the season. I smile and when I think about it :) Isn't our God an awesome God?!

Of course I couldn't help but go to work smiling the next day ;-)

EOG Resources

2008-12-24T18:37:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 16th December 2008

Agape Deaf Centre was invited to EOG Resources Annual Fields Cheque Ceremony. Ian and I went to the function at 10am on this lovely Tuesday on the fourth floor of Briah Place. It was the first time that I went to this building and I found it to be exceptionally exquisite, classy, majestic and ornate.

I think the most intriguing thing about this day is that the grandeur of the building was complemented beautifully by the charitable service of EOG Resources. It was good to know that prosperous companies could still remember displaced people in society and support financially. Agape Deaf Centre was one of 51 NGOs nationwide that benefitted from EOG's giving.

I was so glad that I had the opportunity to go because I had the priviledge of hearing the work done by variou NGOs in the country. It was particularly enlightening and encouraging to see so many people who were making a difference in the lives of displaced and differently abled people nationwide. I remember the founder of FEEL stating that the day the nation stops caring for these special people would be a very sad day.

EOG was constantly thanked for their giving and for the first time it became blatantly apparent to me how little the government contributes to the development of differently abled people. All in all, in the final assessment, it is the NGOs that deaf, blind, homeless, aged, sick, abused people turn to for support, comfort and love. Makes me wonder how and if the nation's tax money contributes significantly to the welfare of these people?

Even more upsetting to me is our 2020 Vision and the near absence of consideration for differently abled people. How could we move forward and leave this sector of our nation untouched? I my estimation moving forward has EVERYTHING to do with the welfare of the nationals and if the major concerns of each group whether its a minority group or not, is not addressed, sky scrappers and high tech systems will fall short to the neglect of the people.

"Together we aspire, together we achieve". Trinidad and Tobago lets move forward together and leave no man behind. I stay true to the cause our nation's displaced people.

Here is the list of NGOs and their contacts that was distributed during the function:

Adult Literacy Group of Trinidad and Tobago: 624-3442/653-4645
Agape Deaf Centre: 681-4375
Autistic Society of Trinidad and Tobago: 663-8397/669-0462
Cancer Support Organisation of Trinidad and Tobago: 652-9144
Caribbean Centre for Missing and Exploited Children: 638-8053/683-3582
Child Welfare League (Tobago Branch): 639-3967
Child Welfare League of Trinidad and Tobago: 623-6301/621-4029
Christ Child Convalescent Home: 637-6023/633-9293/776-2789
Committee for the Upliftment of Underpriviledged: 655-4121
Express Children's Fund: 623-1711
Families in Action: 622-5365/6952
Family Cottage (Children's Rescue Programme): 787-0311
Finbar ryan Geriatric Home: 633-0882/623-4926
Foundation for the Enhancement & Enrichment of Life: 624-7758
Friends of T.O.W.E.R.S.: 639-4620/781-6013
Goshen Halfway House: 642-1693
Holy Name Training Centre: 623-2277
Hope Centre Limited: 657-9630
Immortelle Children's Centre of Special Education Limited: 621-2944/2943
Islamic Home for Children Limited: 650-0773
Kids in Need of Direction (KIND): 626-5463/6333
La Brea Social Action: 648-7571
Lady Hochoy Home North: 622-4495
Lady Hochoy Home South: 650-2164
Living Water Community, Marian House & Hospice: 623-4677/625-5168/6730
Memisa Vocational Training Centre: 667-2314
National Centre for Persons with Disabilities: 642-4880
Pour L"innocent: 678-1996
Rainbow Rescue: 625-6666
Rape Crisis Centre of Trinidad & Tobago: 622-7273/657-5355
Reach to Recovery (Cancer Research Group): 622-1977/637-9230
Rebirth House: 623-0952/765-3193
Renal Support Group: 622-6431/727-4716/862-3372/708-3602
School for Blind Children: 676-8451
Serenity Place: 794-7980
Silent Voices Workshop: 638-2858/468-2262
St. Dominic's Home: 625-7163/7081
St. Vincent de Paul Home for the Aged: 764-8510
Sylphil Home in Love: 639-2844
The Halfway House: 650-2684/652-3651/657-9114
The Jayalakshmi Children's Home: 671-6559
The JC Mc Donald Home for the Aged: 657-8832
The Princess Elizabeth Special School: 678-9045/627-7303/625-0777
The Shelter for Battered Women: 746-4535
The Special Children's Riding Fund: 637-3697
Tobago Council for Handicapped Children: 639-3167/639-4753/639-2768
Tobago School for the Deaf: 639-3582
Trinidad & Tobago Association for Retarded Children: 632-1272
Trinidad & Tobago Cancer Society: 622-6827/800-8827
Vision of Hope: 648-7571/7730
Women in Action for the Needy & Destitute (WAND): 629-2492/389-9772

Good Morning Monday

2008-12-24T17:58:00.000-08:00

Monday 15th December 2008

Well it was back to work on this Monday morning after a wonderful weekend with my precious deaf friends. I usually travel with the PTSC or "PT eh sleep" (as I call it) bus to Port of Spain. This morning I was blessed to see Kenwyn hop on board!! As I saw him walking down the aisle I waved at him and he smiled and sat next to me.

I do admit that I did sleep...(I cant help it lol). If it makes any difference, Kenwyn slept too!! lol. I was able to have some one on one time with him although it was brief. He told me about his PTSC experience and working experience and how travelling and working tires him.

Well my Monday couldnt have started any better! A great weekend and a morning bus ride shared with a deaf friend were the perfect ingredients to have me walking to work smiling :)

Christmas dinner

2008-12-24T16:51:00.000-08:00

Sunday 14th December 2008

On this Sunday at Deaf Church I met Omar, Aunty Olga's son. The interesting thing about Aunty Olga and her family is that I feel as if I've known them for years lol. Actually when Omar walked into Deaf Church this Sunday I felt such a joy to see him. I was happy to see another young person who supports the Deaf. It was really a pleasure to have him with us and I think he was not just a blessing to me but to the Deaf. It was refreshing to see their faces light anew when they saw him and as they interacted with him.

This Sunday a Pastor Quamina also brought a Missionary and his wife to visit the Deaf Church. The Missionary spoke into the lives of the Deaf. He told them not to limit God by their disbelief and that God wants to do big things in their life. He also told them that they could hear God talking to them even though they are deaf. I was truly blessed by this Word.

That afternoon was the Christmas Dinner at Ms Marsha's home in Fyzabad. I am pleased to say that it was a big success!! The food was good, the 'lime' was good, the night was good. I have to say that it was the best dinner I've been to. The jokes were constant, the laughter was sweet, the mood was light and merry. I could not have spent my afternoon with better people in a better place. I was also really contented to see everyone dressed up and ready to unwind and enjoy themselves. I am really really at peace to know that we were able to have this dinner for them.

I think it goes without saying that Shevon was our entertainer for the night! lol He was the storyteller as usual and so our table was where all the action was!! I think Winette, her boyfriend, Ms Marsha, my mom and all the hearing people there were just intrigued by all the drama lol. He was also part of the reason why the night was so wonderful. God bless Shev, his wife and his Christmas baby boy :)

Mr Cleavon and his wife Mrs Judith were also there briefly and I know that for the short time that they were there they enjoyed themselves too! If I'm not mistaken, Mrs Judith learnt and used a few signs solely from observation and interaction. She told me if she spends more time with them she'll learn it fast. I believe her lol.

Of course I have no one but Winette to thank for making this night so special for the Deaf. She was able to cook up a storm for us and I know she was very passionate about this idea. It's because of her willingness to teach the Deaf and do something worthwhile for them that made this night possible. I thank her.

Sleep over at my home

2008-12-24T15:59:00.000-08:00

Saturday 13th December 2008

This night Himlater and Lisa came to Fyzabad to help decorate for the Christmas Dinner which was to be the following night. After which, they came to my home and spent the night and we went to Deaf Church together the next day.

We met Ms Marsha whose house we were using as the venue. Himlater, Lisa, Winetter and I blew up some balloons and arranged some of the tables and chairs. We then went over to Winette's home and chopped some veggies to help lessen the cooking work load for Winette.

God continues to take care of us. When we were ready to go home Ms Marsha volunteered to drop us. I had concluded that we had to walk home because my mom went to a dinner and couldnt collect us. Yet God provided :) as is His habit!!

That night I was able to bond with Himlater and Lisa. I learnt so much about the both of them. Himlater shared about how she became deaf. I had always assumed that she was born deaf like most Deaf persons but she told me she was born hearing until there was an incident that caused her to become deaf. I was shocked to hear this and it is amazing to know that even though she was a young girl when this happend, today she cant remember what the hearing world is like.

Himlater was really consumed in the internet and my laptop so while she experimented with the range of possibilities the system offered, Lisa and I were able to talk. Lisa opened up to me and shared so many things about her life. She had only learnt sign language when she was about 22. I cant even begin to imagine what a silent and boring life she must have endured for 22 years... She shared her experiences as a Deaf girl in her family life, school life and married life. I was happy that she trusted me and was able to freely talk to me. I took the opportunity to encourage her and remind her about the sovereignty of God.

I was so happy that they came and even happier that I was able to accommodate them for the night :) I remember how excited I used to be as a child when my friends came over...having Himlater and Lisa at my home birthed a similar feeling. It shook a part of my little heart that was dormant for some years. I cant really identify how exactly I'm impacting the lives of the Deaf but it is certain that they are changing my life and helping me through an unexpected journey of self-discovery and rediscovery.

Manners Matter

2008-12-23T16:49:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 9th December 2008

Today we were not going to Fyzabad for hairdressing class. Instead we stayed in church and I was able to teach on basic manners from the book Manners Matter by Fred A Heartly. I was pleasantly amazed by the response. Some things I assumed the girls knew, they didnt. I saw on their faces the look of revelation and also appreciation that they were able to learn some common courtesies. Nalini even suggested that I teach the entire Deaf church the lesson lol.

Nalini also touched my little heart on this day. We were discussing how to show respect to different people depending on your relationship with them and we were actually critically comparing hearing and deaf culture. She asked me what they should call me. I told them that "Alana" is fine. Nalini then told me that we're sisters so she will call me sister. I think that was the highlight of my day. I consider it an honour for her to think of me as a sister. To me, they are all my family.

Mom's birthday

2008-12-22T15:51:00.000-08:00

Sunday 7th December 2008

During Deaf Church I was able to share about fasting. We were fasting on this particular Sunday and I wanted to make sure everyone understood the importance and significance of fasting. I realised that many believe that it is just when you dont eat. I explained why it is important to strengthen your spirit and how fasting helps. I want to testify that God must have guided me because I was signing and I cant remember actually thinking about the signs before signing them. What's more, ideas and teaching strategies just emerged as I continued sharing. I could see the gleam of understanding in their eyes and the most encouraging thing was when Vonetta nodded and stated that she did not know that before. I was soooo blessed! Stephen began calling me "preacher woman Alana" lol.

There are so many things I want to share and tell them but sometimes I feel like signing is a communication barrier. Today I realised that I just need to open myself for the Holy Spirit to do His work.

Mark 13:11
...take no thought beforehand what ye shall speak, neither do ye premeditate: but whatsoever shall be given you in that hour, that speak ye: for it is not ye that speak, but the Holy Ghost.

This day was also my mom's birthday so I organised for the Deaf to sign happy birthday to her. I know she was happy, touched and pleasantly surprised by it :)

That afternoon I meet a few of my precious, Deaf friends at Christmas Village. It so happened that I and the majority of the Deaf girls there, wore pink. I was able to spend some one on one time with Lisa as we visited the booths and I was also able to 'lime' with Sherlan, Azard, Neela, Shelly (Neela's hearing sister), Navita and another Deaf woman. We had a fun time dancing and pretending to be parangderos singing and playing musical instruments!! We called ourselves "Pretty in pink girls".

I really cant remember my previous Christmas Village experiences but I think my time with the Deaf this year has made it incredibly memorable. I also cant remember the last time I felt so free to be me. The Deaf are helping me find myself.

Man Di leaves Trinidad

2008-12-20T06:21:00.000-08:00

Friday 5th December 2008

I set my alarm for about 4:15am that morning to make sure I see Man Di before she left. Roger came to collect her at 4:30am to take her to the Airport. We hugged and thanked each other for a wonderful week then she was off to Piarco International Airport.

That morning I found a drawing that I had requested from Man Di, her wallet made of rice paper and a lovely card that she made and placed on the table for me. How could I describe the blessing of Man Di? Of course I would cherish every gift she left and not only the thoughtful, creative ones on the table but also her witness as a Christian sister and friend. I truly believe that her time here was God ordained and I know that she has made a difference in my life.

Man Di's last day in Trinidad

2008-12-20T06:08:00.000-08:00

Thursday 4th December 2008

Today was Man Di's last day in Trinidad. We all wanted her to relax and enjoy herself before she left. So she went to Maracas beach with Roger and his wife Sindy, Shevon and Ian. I did not go because I had another commitment. Though they spent about an hour at the beach Man Di enjoyed herself and that is what was MOST important to all of us :) She deserved it.

One thing worth mentioning is something Navita said on this day. She stated that she loves the Deaf Ministry of Agape because she was afforded opportunities to learn different things in Driving classes and Hairdressing classes. When she said this I was tremendously blessed and encouraged - TREMENDOUSLY. It means that Agape is making a difference in her life and helping her to grow holistically. I was really blessed when she said that!! :)

Well, Shevon, Roger, Sindy and I went to Long John Silvers with Man Di to spend time with her on her last night in Trinidad. It was fun. We were joined by a few other Deaf persons and we were entertained by the story telling around the table!! It was a cool 'lime' or a sweet lime lol.

Deaf Spelling Bee Competition

2008-12-19T22:08:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 3rd December 2008

This was the day of the long awaited for, much anticipated, Deaf Spelling Bee Competition!!! The Working Committee (Nadine, Ian, Shevon, Christa and I), the Judges and Interpreters, my mom and the participants all got to City Hall Auditorium early and started to put things in place for this event.

Winners:

Chrystal Dial - Touch of Christ RC Deaf Community
Christopher Mohammed - Touch of Christ RC Deaf Community
Paulette Rodriguez - Deaf Pioneers Life Centre
Tenielle Smith - Deaf Pioneers Life Centre

For me, the most outstanding person in this competition was the winner. She did not stop smiling from the moment she won until I left the building. I was so happy for her and I felt that all those tiring days and meetings was worth it because it meant that we put a smile on a young girl's face! I had the pleasure of hearing her testimony as one of the news reporters interviewed her. She had only began studying the Word List the day before but she has a genuine love for reading and words. She said that when she reads the newspaper or looks at TV and sees a word she does not know she immediately looks it up in the dictionary. I was even more thrilled when she said how happy she was to receive her laptop because she wants to learn more about computers!! That day was the first time I met her but I cant forget her humility during the competition and her pretty coloured eyes and winning smile! Congratulations Chrystal!!

Prizes:

hp Laptop
Video Camera
Digital Camera
$1000
Other competitors received certificates.

I must also thank Mr Dale Dass from Caribbean Resellers. At the ninety nineth hour (day before the competition) we requested the first, second and third prizes. It was with a genuine smile and willing spirit that he said "Sure, no problem" lol. He delivered the prizes for us and we even got significantly reduced prices. Thank God for Mr Dale Dass!! He has been a blessing to Agape!

Mediacoverage: http://www.trinidadexpress.com/index.pl/article_news?id=161409601

After the competition, Man Di and I went to Christmas Village at the Oasis. That night when we got home I combed her hair in some 'cane-rows'. Man Di's time with us was like having a sister with me for the week!

Tuesday with Man Di

2008-12-19T22:01:00.001-08:00

Tuesday 2nd December 2008

This Tuesday was designated for rest after all the last nights and early mornings that we had. Man Di and I both woke up later than usual (hehe), ate lunch, went to San Fernando to do some business, then came back home.

That evening we went to Christmas Village with Mrs Judith and Mr Cleavon. When we got there we just hung out, enjoyed the music, danced a little and interacted with the Deaf. It was a relaxing day.

Of course I had to leave Christmas Village with a plant. This night I bought an anthurium and later I named it "Aunty Olga" when I learnt that they are native to Columbia. It's a really pretty plant and very fitting for Aunty Olga I think :)

Ministering at Christmas Village

2008-12-19T20:50:00.000-08:00

Monday 1st December 2008 (evening)

Well on Sunday (30-12-08) when the Deaf Ministry ministered at Church, Pastor W Mansingh requested that the Deaf also come and minister at Christmas Village. So on this evening Roger, Krystal, Navita, Ian, Shevon and I ministered in song (Helen Baylor - Lord You're Holy) once more before the Christmas Village.

While we were backstage, already dressed and waiting to minister, we entertained ourselves lol! We pretended to be parangderos singing, dancing and playing musical instruments. Of course Shevon entertained us to capacity!!! His stories are always so dramatic, comedic and absolutely funny! lol. There was a point in time when everyone paired off and danced together. Man Di and I danced and I cant remember the other pairs but we really had a great night :)

We ministered once more and though there were a few people there, we did it for God. At the end, when we returned backstage, I reminded everyone to stay humble no matter how many people begin to love them and acknowledge them. I reminded them that what matters most is God and His love.

Man Di finally got to eat Shake and Bake in Christmas Village on this night. It was a great time out!

Opening of National Disabilities Week 2008

2008-12-19T18:10:00.000-08:00

Monday 1st December 2008 (during the day)

Today Roger, Shevon, Ian, Man Di and I went to POS for the Opening of National Disabilities Week. I enjoyed it thoroughly. Man Di was also able to meet and interact with more Deaf people from our local Deaf community. I felt an inner feeling of contentment and peace just being there among numerous NGOs that focus on disabled people.

Some of the groups did Special Presentations. Here are some pictures:

1. Immortelle Children's Centre for Special Education Limited - Sailor Dance

2. I did not get the name of this organisation but this group focuses on those with Down Syndrome - Sailor Dance

3. Memisa Vocational Training Centre - "Oh Come Let Us Adore Him"

4. Memisa Vocational Training Centre - African Dance with drums

5. Touch of Christ - Drama

Family

What not to do:

this depicts the parents (female and male on far left) ignoring their Deaf daughter as the family looks at TV

What to do: Explain what is taking place on TV to the Deaf family member.

School

What not to do:
The Interpreter (female on far right) is ignoring the Deaf student as the Teacher teaches the class.

What to do:
As the Teacher teaches his class, the Interpreter interprets for the Deaf student.

Work
What not to do: Boss pays hearing and deaf workers unequally. The hearing worker earns a higher wage.

What to do: Boss pays hearing and deaf workers equally

Also included in the Opening was Sherwin Winchester who launched his new song for Disabled persons entitled "Yes We Can"

One thing I remember is Man Di walking pass me and saying "I'm glad I came". I was happy to be there too! :)

Man Di's Sunday in T'dad

2008-12-16T15:46:00.000-08:00

Sunday 30th November 2008

On this Sunday morning the Deaf Ministry was given the opportunity to minister in both the first service and second service at the First Church of the Open Bible San Fernando. Pastor Mark, who heads this Ministry, introduced Man Di to the Church and spoke briefly about SIL and the upcoming Bible translation project. He also introduced Ian and through Man Di's efficient interpreting, Ian was able to impart some Deaf awareness and also testify about his experience ministering in Belize. He informed the church that "Deaf" is perferred over the use of the term "dumb" or "mute" to refer to Deaf persons. He also related how some of the Deaf at Belize received salvation during his missionary trip. I was particularly happy to know that so many people were exposed to Ian's brief talk about Deaf awareness. Many times people say things in their ignorance and this was a great opportunity for change to take place through public awareness.

After this, Ian joined Roger, Krystal, Navita, Shevon and I and we ministered in song - Helen Baylor's "Lord You're Holy". The response was tremendous!! As we were ministering I heard some people praising God with a loud voice. The applause at the end was thunderous. Five Deaf persons were able to go before God and the hearing church and minister and bless lives. This was a true joy!

When we had finished, Pastor Mark thanked me before the church for my involvement with the Deaf Ministry. Some may think that this public acknowledgement was my reward for serving the Precious Deaf. I think it was my test. We ALWAYS have to stay humble and even though we may be exulted before men. I have been constantly blessed and rewarded throughout this journey with the Deaf. Infact, this blog documents the immeasurable blessings and rewards I've received since my Christmas in August (See first blog).

After first service, Man Di attended Deaf Church. Here she was able to interact with more Deaf and participate in the service.

Again, Man Di took initiative during the Second Service as she interpreted for a few remaining Deaf persons who wanted to see us minister in song. She was able to interpret the Service as we waited to minister. What was different about the Second Service is that through Sister Pearl's recommendation, Pastor Mark was able to inform the church to sign the applause. Of course Man Di demonstrated how this is done. I think this is what really stood out to me after we ministered during the Second Service. When we had finished the response was evident by the loud, sustained applause. Yet when the music finally came to an end and we stood up and turned around, the entire church lifted their both hands and shaked them as they signed the applause. I COULD NOT HELP BUT SMILE. I looked at the others and I saw the difference it made to them. I remember seeing Navita in particular smiling as she saw the raised hands. Krystal was so amazed at the response! I was so overjoyed that they were able to see the difference they made.

Many people approached me after the both services and testified about how the Deaf had ministered to them. I was so thankful. The intent of this opportunity for the Deaf Ministry to be presented before the church was to make people aware that there is an active Deaf Ministry and Deaf community among us. Many did not know that the Deaf Ministry existed and that each Sunday while the Hearing Church is in progress, Deaf Church is in session at another location with the church building. Even more, I know that Aunty Olga was concerned about spreading awareness and I was so elated to know that God was in control and He took care of everything (as He always does) in her absence.

After Church, Man Di had lunch at my home and for me, we had one of the most memorable conversations over lunch. She was able to teach me about Deaf Culture and there were so many things that I have to learn as well as unlearn. I am going to share some of these things because I believe that it is also beneficial to any person reading this blog and interested in the Deaf:

Most Hearing people do not allow the Deaf to be independent. It is important to allow them to have this independence and respect their authority. I must always consult the relevant Deaf leaders in any decision making process.
Sometimes the Deaf accomodate to hearing people when they are signing. It is favourable to observe the Deaf while they are interacting with each other and try to sign the way they sign naturally.
It is rude to talk to a hearing person in front of a Deaf person without signing and interpreting. The Deaf person is ignored and excluded from the conversation even though they are present. This is quite impolite.
Deaf people have their own linguistic rhythm. To my understanding this is like their idiolect. As such, a song like the one we ministered with, which contains varying timing (fast/slow) is difficult for the Deaf to learn. This explains why I had to constantly tell them to slow down while we were practicing. The song goes against their natural linguistic rhythm. Man Di suggested that the Deaf should be allowed to minister using songs that they have composed.
It is not wise to sign whilst speaking in order to learn sign language. It is more beneficial to try to express yourself thoroughly when signing and interpreting. Remember that Sign Language and English Language are two DIFFERENT languages.
It is not "hand gestures" but signing.

You know when I think about it, I NEVER liked Linguistics at University and here I am, now involved in the very field that I complained and fretted over lol. God really has a sense of humour! lol. I thank Him now that I see its relevance to His overall plan for my life. Nothing we do in life is purposeless.

Anyway, Man Di went to Christmas Village that evening. Agape Deaf Centre had a booth there so she was able to interact with the Deaf. I bought a plant that evening. It's a small, pretty Crown of Thorns plant. I named it Man Di.

Mom and I decided that Man Di should stay at our home for the rest of her stay.

Man Di's first day

2008-12-13T07:09:00.000-08:00

Saturday 29th November 2008

I had asked my mom to collect Man Di at the hotel in order for us to spend the day together. My mom in turn suggested that we could accomodate her for the weekend. On our way to Pointe-a-Pierre I saw a rainbow. I felt as if God was up to something. Anyway, we collected Man Di after she had breakfast and on our way to my home we stopped for her to have some coconut water and jelly Trini styling! :)

When we got home, she took a rest then ate lunch. One of the things I noticed about her is that she had no interest in looking at television. She spent her time reading and immersing herself in God's Word. I think that this was very admirable and something worthy of emulation.

That afternoon, Roger, Krystal, Navita, Ian, Shevon, Man Di and I went to Santa Cruz at the Caribbean Nazarene College to participate in Sis Cherryl's Junior Recital: "Praise in Many Languages". We all met at church to practice the song before we left. There we met Mr Cleavon and he transported us to the place. Of course I have to thank Mr Cleavon again and again and again for his willingness and readiness to serve the Deaf. Upon request, he took us to Christmas Village to drop some items at the Agape Deaf Centre booth and when we arrived at Santa Cruz he took some of the Deaf to get something to eat. Sometimes I just think about how he NEVER complains or frets and I'm even more grateful for him! May God bless him continually!

I was also thrilled to see how effortlessly Man Di was able to bond with the Deaf. She fit in so naturally and I could she how happy she was to meet them and interact with them. I could tell that meeting the Deaf made her day! When I commented about this, she told me that "This is what I came here for". She's so focussed and she doesnt seemed to be sidetracked by other things. I do admit that spending time with her challenged me in my own personal life and my personal devotion to God. In just one day I felt as if her presence was impacting me in ways untold and unknown. I remember the rainbow that I saw in the morning. The rosebuds and pupa were loosening their grip.

Another thing worth mentioning about Man Di is how she was able to take the initiative without being aggressive and dictatorial. She politely requested that some seats at the front of the auditorium be reserved for the Deaf to sit and for her to interpret. This impressed me because it is something I overlooked. Nevertheless, she was able to be proactive by putting things in place and getting things done. I don't question her love for the Deaf. Things like these make it ever so obvious. This was also the first time I saw her interpret and I thought that she did a wonderful job. I looked at her and I could see that she gave her all - she interpreted with passion.

Well, we ministered in song: Lord You're Holy by Helen Baylor. The applause at the end was so powerful that even some of the Deaf heard it. Mr Cleavon told me that tears came to his eyes and he was so blessed. I praise God again! To Him be all glory! When we minister, it is with the intent that we bring glory to God and bless others. HE ALONE IS WORTHY!!!

Man Di Arrives in Trinidad and Tobago

2008-12-12T19:28:00.000-08:00

Friday 28th November 2008

Man Di arrived in Trinidad on this night. Who is Man Di? Well, Man Di is a linguist sent from SIL International www.sil.org/ and also affliated with Wycliffe http://www.wycliffecaribbean.org/ Sometime next year Deaf Churches nationwide would be partnering with SIL International in order to facilitate Bible Translations in Trinidad and Tobago Sign Language (TTSL). This is the first project of this nature geared specifically towards the Deaf in the Caribbean. SIL International has worked on Bible Translations in American Sign Language (ASL) prior to this. It is very important to have the Bible translated in TTSL in order for the Deaf to understand the Word of God on their own. Often times, they are dependant on the Hearing community to translate the written language of the Bible. I know that many English speakers get trouble understanding the Word, so just imagine how much more difficult it is for a Deaf person, whose English competence is already poor, to understand it!

Also, having the translation in TTSL is beneficial to the local Deaf community not only because it is their language and this breeds a stronger sense of identity but also because many Deaf persons who were not afforded the opportunity to go to school are not very competent in ASL. Although there are overlaps, having a Bible translation in ASL would not benefit the widest cross-section of the local Deaf community. I must also note that contrary to popular belief, TTSL is NOT a dialect of ASL. TTSL existed before ASL was brought to Trinidad and Tobago. I thank Man Di for clarifying this to me.

So Man Di came to Trinidad to get aquainted with the local Deaf before the Project officially launches in 2009. She also arrived at a time when our nation was commemorating National Disabilities Week from December 1st to 5th.

Well, first of all, I MUST pause to thank David and his wife for their selflessness and for accomodating Man Di's arrival. Despite the weariness of flesh that comes with a week of early mornings, late nights and hard work, they were able to serve with a smile :) How I thank God for their sacrifice! We collected Man Di at the Airport and transported her to a hotel in Pointe-a-Pierre. There, David ensured that she was safe and lead us in prayer. Again, I thank God for David and his wife and their support and service. They are definitely people that I believe God placed in my life to help me through this journey.

I must also mention my first impressions of Man Di. When she arrived she hugged me warmly and looked so happy and thrilled to be in Trinidad. The first thing I noticed was her one piece of luggage - a loaded napsack and immediately I could tell that she was a humble and contented person. On the trip home she spoke about the Deaf and I was particularly impressed about her knowledge in linguistics as well as about Deaf culture.

That night I went home tired but extremely excited about what God had in store for the next week! After all, the fact that I was free for this upcoming week is a testimony in itself lol. The Wednesday before Man Di's arrival, I was offered a job and was expected to start working on Monday 1st December. Of course, this meant that I would not have been able to avail myself the way I wanted to for the Deaf and Man Di during National Disabilities Week. YET God remains faithful and true to His work with Agape Deaf Centre.

When I called the following day (Thurs 27th Nov 08), to follow-up on the job offer, I was told that things still needed to finalised! lol I don't think the woman relaying this information knew the joy and peace in felt when I heard those words! lol I was convinced that this upcoming week held something purposeful!

Chrysalis

_Pupa held it tightly

This secret

This work

_Coccoon of silk

Hugging

Hiding

Holding

This design

Master's design

_Transition

Composition

Expression

of the Master's mind

_Pupa whispers ss

Mutters ss

Grins with the rose buds

_It's heard

The eyes hear

Pupa's

Rose buds'

Soul softly saying

Singing

Signing

"Chrysalis"

Alana Z Hosein

13-12-08

10:45am

Glory to God

2008-12-12T18:50:00.000-08:00

Thursday 27th November 2008

On this afternoon Roger, Krystal, Sindy, Ian, Shevon and I practiced the song again. Then the members of the Working Committee for the Deaf Spelling Bee Competition had a meeting. I cant remember the details of this meeting but I must testify that God sustains us all, renews our strength, honours our commitment and protects us along the way.

Hairdressing with Winette at her salon

2008-12-12T18:06:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 25th November 2008

Today we had another Hairdressing class in Fyzabad at Winette's Beauty Salon. Again, the enthusiam and motivation among the Deaf girls was spectacular! Everyone was thrilled to be there and very alert, attentive and obviously interested in the session. They were able to wash, blow dry and flat iron each other's hair with Winette's supervision and guidance.

I think the thing that stood out to me the most was Linda's skill in hairdressing. She was able to not only remember but also do everything that Winette thought quite effortlessly. She seemed so quite in the theory classes and she just shined in these practical classes. We harassed her boyfriend and told him that he would have to open a Salon for her when he builds his house lol. I could also see how this boosted her self-esteem. When we complimented her on the good job she was doing her pretty face lit up! These little things help me to remember that what we're doing is worthwhile.

The Deaf need opportunities to develop their various gifts and abilities. They are not dis-abled but ABLED. The Deaf are ABLED to do different things and they have talents like everyone else. Whatever it is, they too have a contribution to make and they have something unique to offer the world. I continue to thank God for the input and investment that Winette makes into the lives of these precious girls :)

Another BIG thanks goes out to our designated drivers Mr Cleavon and Linda's boyfriend who took us to Fyzabad. Linda's boyfriend transported two ladies to Siparia and Penal respectively and Mr Cleavon dropped Navita and Himlater straight at home in La Romaine then ensured that Lisa was safely home in San Fernando and could not leave the other Lisa to travel to Princes Towne at Shevon's home by herself, so we also had a long drive to Princes Towne. Another BIG BIG thanks to Mr Cleavon for his selflessness and willingness to go the extra mile again and again!! Thank you Lord for providing him!

I also have to mention how lively Shevon's home was when we got there. Kamal, Lisa's husband was there and Shevon, the man and new father of the house came to greet us despite his painful foot. Mr Cleavon and I were not surprised! It's Shevon, 'mr people person' that we're talking about! It was pleasing to see how he opened his home for guests to come over and make things much more convenient for them. Great job Shev!

A desire locked in my little heart

2008-12-12T17:54:00.000-08:00

Sunday 23rd November 2008

On this Sunday, the Deaf attended Deaf Church at the San Fernando Open Bible Church. Pastor Mark and I were trying to source accomodation for a Missionary's upcoming visit to Trinidad and this proved to be a bit challenging. Denyse and the Deaf leaders also tried to come up with a plan but none was really forthcoming.

I left church with a desire locked in my little heart and trusted God. I did not worry but just leaned on the everlasting arms!

SWRHA - Sign Language Open House

2008-12-12T17:17:00.000-08:00

Friday 21st November 2008

Today Roger, Krystal, Sindy, Ian, Shevon and I did a Special Presentation for a Sign Language 'Open House' at Paradise Plum, Paradise Pastures, San Fernando. This was hosted by the South-West Regional Health Authority (SWRHA) together with National Centre for Persons with Disabilities (NCPD).

This was a good experience. I was able to meet more Deaf and also more people associated with the Deaf. I finally met Ms Beverly Beckles - CEO NCPD and Mr Terrence Honore - Executive Assistant to the CEO of SWRHA after corresponding with them on the phone. I think the most memorable meeting was a middle-aged woman whose name I can't remember. She approached us after the session and told me that tears came to her eyes after we did the song. Making a difference is what is important and if it means that we made a difference in just one life, that is what matters most. It is not the applause at the end of ministering but the people that were ministered to.

I also want to thank God for providing transportation. We met in church before going to the 'Open House' and we were not sure how we were going to get there. YET God provided! Just as we were walking down the staircase, we met David and he took us there. Praise be to God who ALWAYS takes care of His own!!

Matthew 6:26

Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?

After this session we went to see Shevon's new born son and his wife at the hospital. Several Deaf were there and they all came to support the young couple. I was happy to be there to see Shevon Junior :)

My God shall supply all my needs

2008-12-07T19:47:00.000-08:00

Thursday 20th November 2008

Again, I spent my afternoon with Aunty Olga. I took her to Winette's salon and there she was able to meet, speak and thank Winette for her service to the Deaf girls. I was also able to meet Mr Dale Dass from TRINICAF Computer Systems in Marabella. I am always grateful for these introductions because it makes communication much easier whenever Aunty Olga establishes the link between us with people she is already familiar with.

Roger, Krystal, Sindy, Ian, Shevon and I meet at church and practised the song. This was followed by a meeting for the Deaf Spelling Bee Competition.

Mom was at this meeting. I REALLY thank God for her contribution to the planning of this competition. Although I was able to many things on my own, sponsorship was definitely not one of my strengths. I was able to write letters for sponsorship but I just could not bring myself to follow-up with calls. For some reason I'm not compelled to ask people for money... admittedly I delayed this process. Eventually I had to ask mom for help and within a day she was able to get a financial donation lol. That's definitely her gifting and not mine. Look how God provides and supplies for every need! I thank God for Mom and her initiative. It was truly amazing to observe her "in action" lol. I praise God for allowing her to help us because if it was left up to me, financial contributions would be almost stagnant lol.

Philippians 4:19

But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

"Alone we can do so little; together we can do so much" Helen Keller

Later that night Shevon texted me. His wife gave birth to a bouncing baby boy!!

Mentorship

2008-12-06T18:48:00.000-08:00

Wednesday 19th November 2008

Well Aunty Olga arrived in Trinidad the night before this day. She visited me and I spent the afternoon running errands with her. It felt like old times and when I say old times I am referring to the first week I spent with her going everywhere she went like Ruth and Naomi lol.

Ruth 1:16
And Ruth said, Intreat me not to leave thee, or to return from following after thee: for whither thou goest, I will go; and where thou lodgest, I will lodge: thy people shall be my people, and thy God my God:

As a matter of fact, it could also be compared to Elijah and Elisha.

2 Kings 2 "As surely as the LORD lives and as you live, I will not leave you."

If I counted right, Elisha said this three times to Elijah in 2 Kings 2. What's my point? Every opportunity I get to serve and learn of Aunty Olga is an opportunity I seize. She is my mentor and I value her advise and listen and heed to her wisdom. She has gone before me and if I am wise I would learn from her and soak in all her godly counsel. This is exactly what I did on this day.

First Practical Hairdressing Class

2008-12-06T17:47:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 18th November 2008

On this afternoon, Roger, Sindy and I had a brief practise for the song, I met with Pastor Mark then some girls and I headed for Fyzabad. This was the first practical Hairdressing class and Winette wanted everyone to go to her salon in Fyzabad to practise Shampooing on each other.

First of all, thanks and a round of applause to our driver Mr Cleavon for taking us there!! As I started to explain the classes to him, he just asked what time and what day! lol So I thank God once again for our designated driver :).

Well today we had another designated driver. One of the girl's boyfriend in the class also transported some girls to class. Actually we left church without him and he was able to meet us at the Cremation Site a little after the creek and follow us to Winette's salon.

The class was great. The motivation to be there was so high that there was even a student from Tunapuna! lol. (I had to talk to her mom and arrange transportation for her to go home. Thank God Roger was going to the airport after class.) The girls were just so excited!! Everyone observed and listened attentively. Looking at them shampoo and blow dry each other's hair was actually a joy lol. They took their assigned roles so seriously. Even the other designated driver peeked at the window to see what was taking place! lol Of course the girls teased him lol.

I was not even needed to do much interpreting. They were able to look at Winette and follow her lead. I was only there to clarify anything that was not so straightforward. This class was their's. I think that one of the most motivating aspect of this class for the Deaf is that it's a hands on class and they are able to be actively involved in the learning process.

Well Winette was kind enough to organise refreshments for us. She made cheese paste sandwiches and served a cold cup of soft drink. This was welcomed by all. Every week she goes beyond to ensure that everyone has a good experience during the class. A round of applause for Winette for her thoughtfullness and tender heartedness! Yay!!

The feedback we receive from this class testifies to the impact that Winette is making on these young ladies. Week after week they turn out. They bear the distance and bad weather to be part of the class. Truth be told, some don't even show this enthusiasm and commitment towards church. It is my prayer that the Gospel will be shared even in these settings. I try to insert a Biblical teaching or two whenever I get the opportunity. The salvation of their souls and their relationship with God is most important and that remains our focus. I thank God for placing it upon Winette's heart to volunteer to do this. Now we are to go out and preach the gospel and expose them to the Word of God in ALL areas of life!! Let them see and know that God's Word is not only applicable in church but in day to day living.

Mark 16:15 Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation.